2015

Once again, I'm here again for a year end entry after leaving my blog to collect dust after so so so long! I've been really busy these days and the only time I get to stay home I find myself catching up on sleep or the dramas I've missed. I don't even have time to do other leisure activities anymore, let alone blog. Well, I tell myself that's probably how adult life feels like? And am still trying my best to adapt to this phase, but I'm doing pretty well now!

2015 has been pretty enriching for me! Though still a little bit stagnant...but I welcomed a few new things in my life as well!

School
So I graduated from Poly in May and took a while to decide my next path in life. The decision which I took forever to come to...and after asking many different opinions from people around me and thinking it thoroughly through...I finally submitted my uni applications to the various local universities as well as SIM-UOB and of course, I was accepted into the latter. And my horrendous uni life began in July.

The first week of induction in uni was a very unfamiliar and strange period for me because I entered into uni all alone without any friends and I had to make new friends from scratch! Totally forgot how to introduce myself and how to act all normal and less awkward in front of new people... In the past few years in poly, I've been attaching myself to the people I knew very well and getting to meet new people was exciting but frightening at the same time.

Thankfully, the people in UOB were all very very nice. I also found a few familiar faces who ended up in the same uni as me too! Finally, I didn't feel too alone and out of place. Joining the orientation camp got me more exposed to the school and its culture. Of course, meeting more people and even seniors too! From there, we all ventured into our own cliques and found our own circle of friends.

orientation camp and my group!

my pillars of strength when times got tough

The first few weeks of uni were really a test of my adaptation skills, trying my utmost best to get back to the schooling life after not studying for almost a year. It was frightening because people were very competitive and just produced really awesome work, leaving me to think if I was really cut out for this. However, I managed to pull through the first few submissions even though I could feel as though I was grasping for air in the midst of an ocean.

Despite the heavy workload and my part-time job, I went ahead for the Student Council interview, all enthusiastic and eager to get my ass into a CCA. I just wanted to feel like I belong somewhere in school, instead of just going to and fro school for academics like when I was in Poly. I was really committed to the choir in secondary school and I totally missed that. I was accepted into the Student Council and from there I got to know even more people! And of course..my life got busier.

xmas party by student council group 1 :-)

Up till now, I'd say I've adjusted myself pretty well to the busy work-school life I've been juggling with. Even though I get a lot lesser leisure time with myself now, I realise that I don't spend my time in vain. I've been spending my time doing more meaningful things now and I just feel happier keeping myself busy. Of course there'd be times when I'd whine and complain a lot and also times when I felt like giving up when school work was getting tough, but without obstacles, there wouldn't be accomplishments. So there, my whole new uni life, I'm looking forward to more challenges posed to me and of course...graduation!

Work
In February I ended my internship with Giamso Tours and started my carefree holiday life once again. The internship left me with many many memorable memories and experiences that I'm sure would benefit me in the working industry in the future. I blogged about this in more detail here. I also attended the wedding of my ex colleague! :)

blissful marriage Vivian!

In order to fund my graduation trips and holiday life, I had to get a job. Being the lazy me, I just went back to Omakase Burger a.k.a my second home hahaha. So once again, I started working part time with a few new faces here and there. At the beginning, I had to move from wisma to grandstand on different days and it was pretty horrible because I really didn't like working at wisma. However, since I don't know when, I started receiving all my schedules at grandstand only and I couldn't be happier!

omakase xmas party!!

In January we also had to bid farewell to our Taiwanese friend because she ended her internship with Omakase and was going home... It was a very upsetting affair because during the past one year, we hanged out together a lot and were just very very closely knitted friends despite coming from different countries. We never felt like she was any different from us and we could talk and play and have fun all the same. Even though at the time we were already planning our trip to Taiwan in May, we still felt sad when she left because we wouldn't be able to spend as much time together anymore.

eyes all red from all the crying, we still miss you jiaxin :(

our friendship won't end (plus keeli) <3

silly girl also wrote us farewell cards... :')

Even though it was such a sad farewell, we reunited with her again in May!! It was my first overseas trip with my friends and I literally had the best 10 days of my life at Taiwan with them. Up till now I still find myself looking back at the photos once in a while and just missing everything in Taiwan, the company, the food, the scenery, the warmth and hospitality...

our crazy supper nights!

miss you so much :(

beautiful kending!

crazy modeling moments

super fun water activities!

omakase chefs who came to send us off! #family

and it was goodbye :(

I really think that friendships need a lot of investment and patience if you want it to last. I've never tried to maintain long distance friendships before and it's a first for us. And you'd think that long distance friendships wouldn't be able to maintain its familiarity and chemistry, but for us, it was a simple affair. We manage to catch up from where we left off all the time, we could not see each other or talk for a long while but nothing changes, and to me, it was something so special and precious that I'd like to keep in my entire life.

sg cuisine at east coast park :-)

因为友情是需要用心经营和维系的!

Thank you Jiaxin for taking time out of your busy schedule to come visit us in Singapore. And even though we weren't there to spend time with you throughout the entire trip, know that our friendship would always be the same. Can't wait for the next time we see each other again!

Family
This year my sister got married and moved to stay with her in-laws. It still feels a little weird sometimes coming home and not seeing her. Being unable to share stupid moments with her and being unable to force her to watch the stupid videos nobody would entertain me with except her. I probably don't feel a lot of it yet because her room is still pretty much intact and would remain like this till her new house arrives...

It was a big thing for my family because we haven't had such happy occasions in a long long while.. During the last few years a lot of unhappy things happened and we were always in a gloomy mood. Slowly, things started to turn for the better and my sister getting married was something that everyone was eager about! Family is everything and it is just so nice to see everyone gathering together and just enjoying quality time together.

I also went to Korea with my maternal family in April and paternal family to Penang in August! It's just all these little little wonderful times spent together that gives me the motivation to work hard every day :-)

CNY + bday celebration for dad!

bday celebration for mommy!

met qtpie Abigail in Korea!

@ Nami Island!

cousins :-)

toh family in Penang!

my family <3

father's day dinner!

cousins!

and we married the DJ off! :)

Friends
Of course, last but not the least, the awesomest bunch of people who's always there for me and loving me for who I truly am. I don't have much things to say to you guys because what's there to say anymore? The chemistry between us would never cease to exist and please always know how amazing you guys are to me. #16to60 is what I wanna tell you guys :-)

Thankful and grateful to have ended yet another year... I am blessed, with a loving family, with amazing friends, with an education, with a roof over my head, with the ability to earn my own income and a lot more. I should always count my blessings and never take anything in life for granted because a lot of people out there are hoping to have the things I have, some of them I have despite not putting any effort into.

Thank you amazing people who have came into my life and who have always loved and accepted me just the way I am. Although sometimes I still do hope to meet that special someone... thank you guys for never letting me feel alone and unwanted.

With a grateful heart, I will enter 2016 all happy, cheerful and hopeful because it's time for more changes, more beginnings and more challenges that will await me! :)

In the new year, I resolute to 1) get a driving license 2) travel 3) spend a lot of time with my parents 4) drink more water.

Goodbye 2015....!

I feel like I don't have anyone to tell my inner secrets to because all they do is tell me "It's okay you will be fine soon" "It's okay there's nothing wrong with that!!" "It's okay everyone has their own weird sides" when deep inside them they're judging me as hell.

So at the end of the day I just keep all these inside of me and be hopeful that one day it will all go away and everything will be fine eventually.

Perhaps I am weird. Perhaps I am different from people my age. But what can I do?

My Sister

Haven't blogged in a long long while but here's a short one.

It's Hari Raya Haji today and guess what? I'm not working yay! Promised to help my sister pack her room today so I took a day off work despite the 1.5x pay. But nothing is more worth quality time spent with family so I'm happy! 

Her room is really a disastrous place to be in and honestly I don't know how she managed to survive living in there for the past few years hahaha. Basically she has SO MANY THINGS she didn't know where to even begin packing. 

Oh yes, she's packing her room because she'll be moving to her fiance's house after their wedding in November so yep. I will be moving over to her room after her BTO is ready for collection and I am damn excited! 

I'm sure everyone dreams of having their own room? Maybe not those who already have it since young but for me, someone who once shared a room with two people, then one person and now finally getting my own space, it sure is exciting as hell!! Being able to fully control where you want to place your stuff and how you want it decorated is beyond happiness. 

But despite all these, on top of all these positive things, there are the negatives too. The negatives that I feel so much stronger now. 

Seeing my sister's room turn from a crime scene to a clean, neat, tidy and almost empty room gradually made me really sad though it was pleasing to my eye. 

One day she's not gonna be in the house anymore and that really upsets me. I've always enjoyed her presence and nothing makes me happier than always crashing her room at night to talk about nonsense and watching shows we love. 

I will miss her crazy laughter, her stupid jokes, her witty comments and her listening to my whinings that I cannot tell other people about. I will miss spazzing with her over our favourite show - 阿还. I will miss having someone that I can force to listen to the songs I love or videos I find absolutely funny that no one else will be bothered to entertain. 

I will miss reminiscing childhood memories with her and digging up old jokes to laugh about. I will miss seeing her work for her art and craft projects. I will miss her asking me solutions for the stupidest problems in the world. And I will miss all your stupid dance moves and crazy childishness. 

There are endless things to the list I will miss about you in this house - the one and only house in our lives. 

Thank you for being my sister and bringing much joy and love to my life! I won't be preparing a speech for your wedding but maybe this will be it. A little sudden and abrupt coz I wrote it out in a hurry. 

I hope we will always be this close despite you staying so far away next time.

P/S tho I am always complaining about helping you do stuff I still always willingly do them anyway. I know you love me for that! :-) 

Adult life

Feeling sad recently because uni has officially started for me. Actually, it has already started for a month or so now and I haven't really had the time to talk about it because school work has been rather overwhelming. It is also not easy juggling my time between school and part-time job and of course having a life at the same time. But that's also the main reason why I am feeling sad - having no fucking life coz really, nobody has time for me anymore. Oh my god I feel so pathetic typing this?

Entering uni makes me feel like I've officially jumped on the adult life bandwagon where people are really not the same anymore. People who've been around you for quite some time now, people you just met or even people you're soon going to meet. It's really tough job getting to know new people, having to repeat your entire life story again to someone entirely new to your life when you don't even know if this particular someone is going to stay in your life.

And yes, the thing about being adults is, we all change and we all grow. We grow up to be the sickening adults we thought we would never become. As cruel as reality sounds, it is true and real to a point. People around me have changed, their priorities and their friendships. People meet new people and people move on, you know? People's lives no longer revolve around you. People whom you used to see every day, you don't even get to see them now, not even once a week, heck, maybe not even once a month. Coz everyone's so fucking caught up with work and shit and basically just...life.

And this is what makes me sad. Because that was once a point in our lives when we thought we were gonna be happy with who is around us forever. But reality has to kick in and slap your face with the fact that no your friends aren't gonna be around forever and it is safer to tell yourself you should learn to be independent. Well, that's how I am and have been as a person my entire life - alone. And as sad as it sounds, I probably like that I am alone. But there will be times, times like these when I tell myself it'd be good to have a friend around too, somewhere.

As adults now we just gotta suck it up coz no one's gonna come wipe your tears for you or pat you to sleep at night when you can't. You are an adult now and you ought to have the ability to fend for yourself ya? You should deal with your own fucking problems coz everyone else has theirs.

This entry is totally going in a self-destroying route and this is bad. I am supposed to be doing my essay what am I doing here okay bye. Evidently, adults don't conclude their entries coz adults..have life to deal with.

The rest of my Korea Trip 2015

I'm back again for my Korea trip updates! Omg this is getting so overdue my memory is failing me already! I still have my Taiwan and KL trip I wanna talk about HAHA.

Third day of the trip and we're back to Seoul from the rural and mountainous areas! First stop of the day -> Everland!! I didn't have much expectations for it because I didn't read up on it before the trip and I was unaware of the rides available as well. In my imagination it'd just be like any other theme parks right!! But it really amazed me! (Except that it was a Saturday and there were loads and loads of people!)

third day's hotel breakfast was a lot better!!

traveling by cable car coz the theme park is huge!

omg so cute so cute so cute!!!

mommy and I among the pretty flowers!

trying on the cutesy hair accessories LOL

I love giraffes!!!

the whole place was just super nice!!!! plus the weather :-)

We only had a limited period of time inside so we didn't manage to take all the rides! Rushed for the animal safari coz the tour guide said we should definitely try it! While waiting in the queue we also went to get queue tickets for T-Express!!! So happy we got to try T-Express omg and we didn't queue for 1.5 hours coz that was the estimated waiting time...

hello t-express! I wanna ride you again!! IT WAS SUPER FUN!!!!

super duper humongous bear omg 

lol he was begging for food super funny wtf

act chio shot with the head band meant for my sis lol
by then my skin was already peeling like mad thanks to the weather sobs

Line store! everything was cutesy inside!!

so glad we met this cute family in the tour! :-)

We left in the late afternoon coz we had to rush to other places :-( If I have the chance to pop by again I definitely would! Bye Everland you've been superb!!

super dope korean bbq for lunch (thanks tour guide for arranging this!)

Arrived at this super pretty place to board a cruise ship! It was a huge park where people were having picnics and cycling! I wish Singapore had a place like that too!

bread making session!

us.. with... erm "handsome" assistant over there lol

too pretty to not take a shot!

blurry shot but hello Abigail I miss u!!!

pretty night streets of Seoul

I'm gonna continue with the rest of the trip so I can finally end this series! Looking forward to day four coz I'm gonna wear the hanbok!!!! Hehehe

first of all.. yucky breakfast once again 

omg she's really soooo cute!!!

trying my best to be demure lol

cuzzies love!

Abigail throw tantrum didn't wanna pose... hahaha

behind the scenes of being pretty HAHAHA

very lousy bibimbap for lunch :-S

Totally can't piece together the rest of trip together anymore! Omg bye I'm just gonna be posting random photos.

fail at trick eye art lol

watching the change of guards performance!

evening view of Seoul!

omg banana milk I miss :-(

dope lunch at Incheon Airport!

and it's goodbye for real!!!

It has been a really good trip considering my low tolerance for tour groups! But I really enjoyed myself thoroughly this time round. So recommend everyone to visit South Korea in April when the weather is perfect and there are loads of pretty cherry blossom trees to see! :-)

Hey South Korea, I hope to visit you again, preferably in winter! Woohoo!!