爸爸去哪儿

I've been spending the last two weeks of my holiday catching up on a reality show which my sister chanced upon one mundane afternoon. It's actually a show produced in China...so at first when I saw my sister watching it I was totally turned off. But I swear I made the best decision ever to watch it COZ IT'S ONE FUCKEN NICE SHOW.

Right, so if you have never read/seen anything about this show, it's called 《爸爸去哪儿》 and it's a reality show where 5 celebrity fathers had to bring their child on trips to really deserted places in China and complete certain missions together. There are a total of 12 episodes and every 2 episodes they'll go to a different place.

I really really love how real this show is and how we witness the growth and changes of the kids through each episode. At the beginning, the kids were really shy and they just kept crying! At the start of the show their toys and electronic devices had to be confiscated and will only be returned to them when they leave the place and they all burst into tears almost immediately. It's super hilarious to watch them coz they are so real!

At every place they'd either have to draw lots or compete against each other to see who gets which house. Obviously the houses provided aren't the ideal places to live in...there'll be a best and a worst and it's funny to see who gets the worst and then see how they're gonna deal with the place.

I seriously love all the kids in the show because they're too adorable and innocent. They also keep asking really funny questions and making super hilarious comments about the place, missions and their dads... Even though they all have their own really annoying moments, e.g. crying, throwing a tantrum, refusing to cooperate with the dads, but they're all really real and angelic.

It makes me ponder why there are certain things that seem so simple in a child's world but yet can be so complicated in an adult's mind. It makes me think a lot on why growing up changes a person's actual self. I would like to think these children would grow up and stay the same - innocent and naive, but that's really just impossible. A child's world is so beautiful; it's just sad to know they'll be disappointed as they grow up because that's how society is.

Take some time out of your busy lifestyle to watch the show and you'll find yourself being less stressful about life and learning to look at the simpler things instead. One of the shows I'd recommend to ANYONE - whether you're a guy or a girl, whether you're 15 or 50, whether you're quiet or noisy, whether you're boring or happening, you have to watch it.

Small snippet here for you!!

2 0 1 3

People always say as you grow older, time passes faster. 2013 went by particularly fast, so fast so that my brain isn't quick enough to follow through everything that happened. Nevertheless, I'm going to try my best to recall all the things that happened so I have a proper entry this time round.

2013 was a year of changes and adaptation; it was a year of learning to stand up after falling and a year of acceptance. Growing up is real tough work. Being at the age of 18 made me neither a child nor an adult. You can no longer use the excuse of "I'm still young" to make certain mistakes. You cannot pretend that certain responsibilities or duties aren't there just because you are unwilling to face them. You cannot deny the fact that there are now many more problems you'd have to face.

Being in year 2 of poly made me face the choice of post-poly life. To continue studying or venture out into the society. As much as I'd like to push these decisions to the back of my mind and tell myself "I still have time to think", they never fail to haunt me as I proceed on with life. It's tough work trying to work out a path for yourself, be it to meet your own expectations or your parents'. It's tough work to even try to convince yourself that everything will fall into place naturally when the time is right. But through all these problems, you can only continue growing. And of course, I'm still learning to deal with all these. All of us are.

I truly have never liked the idea of entering into poly. It never really did bring me any additional happiness nor did I really find people whom I feel will walk my life with me. However, being educated in Singapore left me with no other choices. So it was really just another miserable academic year for me. One of the greatest changes would be switching project groups and learning to work with new people. It is definitely going to be a whole new experience and I'm glad to say everything has been going well thus far and am hoping the new school term would be a good one with them.

Having a part time job also made me feel more like an adult. Earning my own money, paying for my own expenses and having the ability to treat my family to a nice dinner gave me contentment. Since young, I've always dreamed of the day when I bring my parents to a good restaurant to dine and have them let me take the bill. I'm so glad to fulfill this wish of mine only at the age of 18. Even though I know how much they want me to just keep the money for myself, I know I still want to do this with my money forever.

Losing another two family members in the year was definitely another obstacle we had to face. Never have I once see my dad cry so bad in front of so many people. Never have I feel so strong how life is so much more fragile than all of us think it is. We all think we have a lot of time, but the real irony is also how little time we have left. Perhaps human beings only learn through pain and agony, my family has learnt to treasure each other even more now. Cousins putting in effort and taking time out of their very busy lifestyles and every one else being cooperative resulted in us having our very own Christmas party in the history of Toh family. The night was filled with much love, fun, laughter and tears. 2013 definitely taught me to love harder and never, ever, ever take your family or friends for granted. Please love them while you still can.

Am ever grateful to friends who stayed true to me and themselves throughout the year. I will forever be thankful to friends who have always love me for who I am, who take time out to hear me rant (even though I mostly keep problems to myself), who take time out to meet me (when I once in a blue moon get bored of staying home), who bought gifts for me on special occasions or even wrote a letter/card. All these I appreciate and will never forget. People say "depend on your parents at home and depend on your friends outside", I will always remember the people who let me depend on and never will I be shameful to depend on you guys. Thank you for making my 2013 a little better each time it goes haywire. I'm sure you people know who you are :)

Little things I went through during the year would be removing my braces (which I am super happy to and am mad loving my new set of teeth), going to 3 different concerts which I'm glad to have gone (amei, mayday and JJ Lin!), attending a few school events (DTRM grad night 2013, DTRM retreat 2013, DTRM year 2 JB trip), some birthday celebrations and family outings (at the jurong bird park, river safari, a first getaway to JB as well as the Xmas party!).

2013 was definitely not one of the best years I've went through, in fact, it may even be ranked as one of the worst. But life is full of ups and downs and only with setbacks will we understand success and only with tears will we appreciate smiles. I am grateful to have survived another year with good health and people.

In the new year, I resolute to spend more time with my family and friends and lead a healthier lifestyle. No more unrealistic resolutions which I will never ever keep up to. May 2014 be a better year and may my family, friends and I be blessed with good health. Just wanna say I'm glad to be alive and kickin'. Toast to yet another brand new start. Cheers!

it's 5 days to 2014.
AND I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT.
2013 can go to hell please.
i've never hated a year as much as 2013.
i don't even know where to begin with as to how much i hate 2013.
no point trying to rant everything out because nobody ever understands me.
i just want 2014 to arrive now and maybe, just maybe, treat me a little better.

maybe i'm just not meant to be.
maybe i'm just not mean to be born here, in this place.
or maybe i'm just not meant to be born now, in this time.

i'm feeling super horrible now coz i don't know how to express myself to make myself feel better.
somebody help me omg

外面的世界

如果有一天
你发现你爱上了一个人
这个人跟你一点都不像
他一点都不温柔
他一点都不粘人
他独立并且向往自由
他一点都不想永远待在同一个地方

相反的
你很粘人
你其实喜欢自由
但他让你不想自由
他让你只想留在他身边 哪里也不去
他让你想要安定下来

可他永远想着下一个目的地
一个没有你他也可以迫不及待飞到那里的地方
他会偶尔给你打个电话 寒暄几句
他会在每个旅程结束后更懂得珍惜你一点
他会在旅游时想起你 并给你买手信
但下一秒 他又好想飞了

这时候 你说
外面的世界很精彩
外面的世界很无奈
当你觉得外面的世界很精彩
我会在这里衷心的祝福你

外面的世界很精彩
外面的世界很无奈
当你觉得外面的世界很无奈
我还在這里耐心的等着你

我依然等待你的归期

Such is life

Recently I've been pretty active on a new app called "Dayre". It's like a blogging + Instagram combined app. It's super convenient coz it's like you can blog + instagram anywhere and anytime and anyhow!

So I may really start to neglect this space...

What's upsetting is because nobody around me ever blogs anymore. So it's like I'm the only one left around here (sobs) This goes back to the point -> nothing's gonna last forever. 天下无不散之筵席。

Just like my part-time job at Omakase Burger...there's gonna be a new outlet opening next year in Orchard and some of us are gonna be shifted over there. There goes our big family :-( Don't really know whether I'd be staying or going...oh well.

"Such is life." Quoted from one of my colleagues. Hahah I must really love these bunch of people!

Next week marks the beginning of Mid-Semester Exams. Which means to say I'll be on hiatus for a week. Maybe during the holidays I may try to blog more? (hopeful)

Happy December everyone! I'm so glad 2013 is finally coming to an end...............

Sharing with you guys my new favourite song from Hebe Tian. Goodbye!


明明你也很愛我 沒理由愛不到結果
只要你敢不懦弱 憑什麼我們要錯過
夜長夢還多 你就不要想起我
到時候你就知道有多痛

A little story

Still haven't found "my" own sense and style of blogging. So it's really just full of random things that I wanna talk about every other day. But I have always believed that blogging is just jotting down random little things in life that you believe in or finding meaning in. So here goes my little story today.

I was waiting for my bus at the interchange when I saw an old lady running for her bus which was already going off. Fortunately, she got it and the bus stopped for her. I looked on further to realise she didn't board the bus! Instead, she stood in front of it and got the driver to wait.

So I looked somemore and I saw another old lady trying to run towards the bus but was at a very slow speed (probably coz her legs just can't support running anymore). When she finally reached the bus, the previous old lady who was already there smiled and handed her 3 plastic bags. She boarded the bus and the other looked on to see she sat down safely as the bus started to move.

They waved goodbye and the old lady who did not board the bus walked away with a smile.

These scenes kept replaying over and over again in my head and I was really genuinely touched by what I saw.

You know they probably are best friends since young and what's amazing is how long their friendship has been. And I was also amazed that she actually helped to carry her plastic bags and even chased the bus for her.

These are the little things in life that we should notice everyday. These little things will give us hope in life. Look around your surroundings and you'll chance upon many things you never once used to notice.

Find joy in life. Instead of waiting for it to find you.

Unfilial

I read a tweet just now which made me flare up instantly....grrr.

"My mom needs to learn how to shut up."

SERIOUSLY? Girl? Is that how you treat someone who brought you to this world, gave you the most love and care, have you vomit all over her and still love you like mad?

I cannot emphasize more on how much I hate people who are so unfilial. I am not only DISLIKING these people, I am HATING them.

As much as you can't communicate with them or you feel they don't understand what you're thinking, you shouldn't ever say something like that.

Everyone has parents and most of them wouldn't understand how we feel or what we think, especially when we're at the age of 16-19. But it takes a lot for you to TRY to understand them too.. It's a mutual thing you see?

It is definitely okay to complain, because we're all just human beings. We hurt people and people hurt us. But as cliché as it sounds, they're still our parents and no matter what they do it's what they feel is best for us.

Please do not treat them as if they owed you something. Because it's the other way round, it's US who owe them something, perhaps EVERYTHING.

The last thing I could tolerate would definitely be people who're unfilial/disrespectful to their elders/parents.

What goes around comes around. Treat your parents right, and your future children will treat you back the same too.

SOTM: 步步

"如果相識 不能相戀 是不是還不如擦肩"

JJ Lin Concert 2013

Attended JJ Lin's concert on Saturday and it was super amazing!! I think I'm a little hardcore coz it's my 3rd concert of the year (ALREADY) but I just can't resist. I actually wanted to go for Jay Chou's and S.H.E's one as well but the tickets were already sold out... HARDCORE MANDOPOP FAN OVER HERE.

JJ Lin used to be my super super super idol when I was young. I really knew how to sing almost all of his songs and I even have this karaoke CD of his songs and I would always sing at home with my siblings. I used to think he was super cute (lol to think that he's so much cuter now) and his voice is just super mesmerizing?! My favourite has always been 一千年以后 *_*

I got super excited the moment I stepped into the stadium!! Despite being there for the 3rd time this year, the stadium still never fails to amaze me, how it's uber huge and with all the stage set up and all. It was kind of empty at the beginning (guess I was there too early) but by the time it started it was super filled!

Super loads of people!!

He started the concert with a few fast songs and a super *bling bling* outfit. I was super mesmerized when he came out I swear he's super duper handsome? Not to mention about his voice.... ♥

Really too blur...but this is like one of the best already!! That's his super *bling bling* outfit hahaha

Guess my photography skills just suck a lot (bluek)

I'd like to confess that I felt a little bored at the beginning coz I didn't know a lot of the songs he was singing!! And then I actually had a little thought that Mayday's concert was sooo much better. PLEASE SLAP ME. I really didn't mean it...the concert actually really got better and beTTER AND BETTER.

When he was singing 《飞机》 his brother came up to perform with him!! And I must say his brother's singing was super good as well?? He had a similar voice to 陈奕迅 (just so you could imagine), the type of deep and manly voice (spasms). And their brotherly love really touched me sooo much. The brother actually took out his handphone at the end of the song to take a picture with him on stage (how cute is this?!)!!

The second part of the concert proceeded on to him singing while playing his guitar with 4 other musicians playing guitars/drums. I really loved this part so much. He rearranged the music to a really groovy and catchy tune and I LOVED IT SO MUCH. Here's a video someone else posted on Youtube!

I LOVED IT when he sang 《关怀方式》 in the middle omg it's like a super Singaporean song and it really makes me feel so connected with him!!! I love the super soothing and catchy tune!! Omg somebody just save me I'm literally drowning in his voice.

Performing "Billie Jean"

Not a very clear view but if you look closely there's water on the floor!!

This is the video I took and I feel it's not bad right? As compared to the pictures...I think the video is a lot clearer!! And you can see the water on the floor too!! He was splashing it around I bet the people there were all wet LOL. Anyway, watch closely at the end of the video! He actually tore his singlet after that but I didn't manage to film it!! He's got super defined abs wtf I can't (drowning).
OK HERE COMES THE CLIMAX. His guest was actually 孙燕姿?!?!?! And they sang 《她说》 together and it was SUPERB. 孙燕姿's voice is really amazing?! I feel like I'm at 2 concerts at one time wtf my ticket is so worth it.

Super cute when they were like chit-chatting on the stage and the part where she held his hand???? Sweet sweet sweet ♥

Really super love this bboy look of his!! He wore this during the encore part and he performed 《江南》 for the last song :')

The concert really ended on a good note and I swear I'd go for it a 2nd, 3rd, 4th, NTH time!! Really super love his VOICE, his sexy ABS, his sexy DIMPLES AND HIS LAUGHTER OMFG. I swear he's my fav now other than 阿信 (LOL)
Took a few shots of the lightings which I thought was super nice!! I think my photography skills aren't that bad after all.....hahahahahZZ

my FAV shot

I looked through a lot of photos and videos after the concert on Instagram and a lot of people actually took super duper nice pics and vids...super jealous of those upfront!! AND THE GUY WHO MANAGED TO TAKE HIS TOWEL HOME EVENTUALLY. So after he performed during the encore part he actually took off the towel on his neck, SIGNED ON IT AND THREW IT TO THE AUDIENCE. So these two groups of people were fighting so hard for the towel the security had to get them to go out of the stadium to settle their "argument" LOL which I feel was stupid coz they missed the last song LIKE SRSLY...
Ending this entry with my favourite song for the night which is also the only full song I managed to film down. Enjoy!!! LUB LUB MA BOI JJ LIN

And I actually tried on a tip which I found online that says if you cover the speakers while recording it will actually sound better than usual! And I think the tip really worked??? Tell me what you think!!

H A P P Y

I realised I really don't blog when I'm happy and only come up here when I'm really sad. So my blog eventually becomes a platform for me to whine and rant and the atmosphere just becomes really dull. I'm sure all of you would get bored of it someday so here I am today with a happy entry!!

I guess the saying "when you hit the pit bottom you can only find yourself moving up" is really true because just 2 days ago I was literally at my lowest point. I was so sad and angry (with people and myself) that I went to bed at 9:30pm, simply because I was just so pissed and tired of dealing with ANYTHING.

But today was a really good day even though lessons started at 8am. MICE tutorial is probably the most interesting tutorial for me. I feel like we're there to really learn something instead of "retrieving knowledge for exams". And you don't really have to go through typical lesson routines like listening to the teacher talk for a full hour or copying down notes. What we do is really just sharing our answers and opinions and listening to other people's answers too! Time always passes really fast during these 2 hours so I'm really happy ☺

Ah yes, something bad happened after the tutorial though. I was called to stay back with a few other people who were also from DTRM Chapters. I remember being super happy when I was selected to be in Chapters because it's the only CCA I would be involved in. But what was disappointing is I always don't receive notifications for meetings and stuff. I just feel super forgotten and neglected when such things happen (it's not even the first time).

And when Mrs Seet was talking to us about the attendance issue, I felt myself tense up while explaining WHY I didn't turn up for a lot of meetings. And it's not even because I don't want to but because I don't even know these meetings existed. But all in all, hopefully things get settled soon. ~let's get back to our mood alright~

After rehearsing through my PP presentation with Josephine and Hui Ting we went off to meet Fiona and Stephanie at Somerset 313 and we settled down for lunch at Sushi Express!! It was my first time there and I kind of really enjoyed myself. It's been a really really long time since we last went out together and we talked so much throughout the meal! We laughed quite a lot too and to be honest, I haven't felt like I was THIS happy in so long ☺

Walked around H&M, Scape and Cineleisure with them after our meal and I returned home at about 3.30pm to avoid the peak period crowd! On the train I received an incredibly good piece of news which is not appropriate to be shared on a public platform so....just know that it made my day SO much. Words can't explain how happy I was. Squealing about it to my bff made the train ride feel SUPER FAST.

And even though it was raining so heavily in the late afternoon (I hate rainy days), I still felt really happy! And it's been seriously SO LONG since I was THIS happy and since I laughed THIS much. I hope the happiness stays on for a while, at least for tomorrow coz my presentation's tomorrow. FINGERS CROSSED coz it's the first presentation for the sem! I'M READY, BRING IT ON PP ~~~

you would only be happy if you focus on the happy things

Bad day

i am so upset and i am so sick of being upset.

i am so sorry for all these fucken entries but it seems blogging is the only way out when you're sad.

today was bad. very very bad. i will forever remember this day.

i hate you.

Hurt

It just sucks so much to care about people who don't care about you, you know?

We obviously know people who only come to you when they need you. These are the people who take your presence for granted and your absence for naught. We know we mean less than a cent to them.

And yet, we can't bring ourselves to leave. We can't bring ourselves to stop caring about them. We can't force ourselves to unlove someone.

We ask ourselves this question repetitively over and over again "why do you care? Because h/she doesn't" But we have no answer.

We often let them control our feelings and emotions. Which is utterly wrong because you're allowing someone to affect you. It's like giving them the permission to destroy and ruin you. Passing them the gun and knowing that they'll pull the trigger, but we don't run.

And then we ask ourselves again - is this what love is supposed to feel like? That you're so willing to be destroyed. Ironically, being hurt and refusing to leave.

Now if you always thought love would bring you happiness, perhaps you've never thought how love would destroy your happiness.

And it just doesn't only apply to relationships. Friendships, kinships are often what destroy us most.

People always say friendships last longer than relationships. But is it even true?

If your friend decides one day that you're no longer friends then what do you do?

Do you look for a new friend?

You know there'll always be that empty hole in your heart. The hole wasn't empty when your friend existed. It becomes an empty hole when your friend leaves, and the hole won't cease to exist, you know? And that is why it hurts. Because the holes remain.

Broken

Tomorrow marks the third week of school. And I haven't even really sink into the studious mood yet. I definitely still am idling my days away and naively thinking that my problems would just go away if I ignore them long enough.

Tonight is bad. I quarreled with my sister and my parents aren't in a good mood as well. Everyone's just really grumpy and impatient. Every little thing gets on our nerves too much. And it seems to me that negativity is so much more contagious than positivism.

My life is really scattered now. I don't really know what I'm doing with my life either. I'm all broken inside and my mind is getting more exhausted as each day lingers by. Right now I should really be doing school work but I'm so upset to do anything.

Argh somebody tell me what to do please, I am so miserable :(

Some nights

"Loving someone is standing precariously on the edge of the building, ready to jump. It is lying in a flooded bathtub, holding your breath until your lungs give out, and driving too fast on a winding road at 4am in the morning, with no destination.

But sometimes, loving someone is taking a step back from that ledge because someone said, "Don't". Or pushing yourself out of the water and taking in deep breaths of air after hearing your daughter's laughter down the hall. And maybe loving someone means stepping on the brake before the crash because you realize that while one person may not love you, someone else does.

Loving someone can kill you, or it can make your life worth living."

Fragile but strong

Haven't been up to anything lately, hence the lack of entries! I'm still enjoying my holiday but it's gonna be coming to an end soon...which scares me a lot because I haven't done anything in the past 1.5 months (don't ask me why)

Today I was doing my usual morning routine of doing the laundry and all when my sister whatsapped me that my cousin passed away.

Most of you probably have cousins around the same age as you but I don't. Most of my cousins are already married and some of them even have kids. This cousin of mine is married with no kids and probably about 40 years old this year.

He was diagnosed with kidney failure about 13 years ago and his family managed with every cent they could for him to undergo a kidney transplant which then earned him another decade.

Just recently his kidney failure acted up again and he was undergoing dialysis until one day he felt really uncomfortable while at the dialysis center and he was admitted to Mt. A till today, he never came out.

I really don't fathom why life can be so fragile yet strong at the same time. It's always so contradicting. And I don't know why but ever since my grandma passed away nothing has ever been on the good side. In just 4 years my family went through 4 funerals...just imagine the pain we all went through. We are always so afraid of another heart aching news but it always happens.

I really hope my cousin is now safe in another world where he no longer feels pain and sorrow. While I am happy for him because he's finally finished fighting this battle I'm really sorry for his wife and mother. I hope they all stay strong. 

Ah guan kor kor, 你一定要保佑我们大家。一路走好。

Pet Peeves

Today I'm going to be talking about my pet peeves. Alright, you may seriously not be interested but please bear with me for a while while I get some things off my whining list. I've been thinking about my pet peeves for the longest time ever.

What exactly is to be considered a pet peeve? And I realised that for example, you say that you hate people who are selfish, it's not considered a pet peeve. A pet peeve should be more specific and not generalized like the term 'selfish'. Instead, you say you hate people who refuse to lend anyone anything. That's a pretty bad example, but you get it. So let's get into it!

1) People who spam Whatsapp Group Convos especially late at night.
I've been thinking about my pet peeves for forever and this just always happens to be first on the list. I'm talking about people who wanna talk to only ONE specific person about something and he/she has to communicate his/her idea through a WHATSAPP GROUP. Why can't you just talk to that person on another personal conversation?

Especially when it's already 11pm/12am/1am and PEOPLE ARE ALREADY ASLEEP/PREPARING TO SLEEP. Even if you have something to say to the ENTIRE group of people can you please collate all your points in just ONE message instead of spamming? People like me need my beauty sleep and even if I turn my phone on silent mode it still VIBRATES. It's super irritating when I'm already about to fall asleep and my phone starts to vibrate for 1863 times. On another note, if you have something urgent to say please just call the person. Ok, please learn to maximise the potential of your phone.

2) People who walk super slowly in front of you / People who walk in groups.
People who walk super slowly pisses me off like crazy. Ok I understand that everyone walks at different speeds so let's skip this. But people like that still piss me off. Next, people who walk in groups and WALK SLOWLY is the ultimate BOMB. Like a bunch of school kids walking together, talking loudly and walking super slowly and BLOCK UP THE PATHWAY. Please get something straight in your mind: you don't own the pathway. If you have something SO important to speak to your friend please sit down somewhere at a cafe and talk. Do not talk while walking and block people's way. Ugh.

3) Smokers who walk while smoking.
Basically, I just hate all smokers. BUT, I especially hate smokers who walk while they smoke! Why can't you stay fixed on a spot while smoking? I'd totally appreciate that. Because while you are walking, the smoke TRAVELS. And if I am walking behind you, the smoke all comes to ME. When you are walking, the smoke goes EVERYWHERE. I understand that you are a smoker and do not mind harming your own health but please do not go to the extent of endangering our healths PLEASE.

4) People who use utensils while eating a burger.
I am weird but because I work part time at a burger joint and I always see people asking me for utensils. Excuse me but why are you cutting your burger up into pieces and eating it? Why can't you hold it in your hands? A burger is meant to be held in hands!!! OH MY GOD. I can't stop staring at these people like seriously I DON'T GET IT. Why make your life miserable? Grrrrr.

5) People who stand too close to me on public transport.
I seriously cannot emphasise anymore on this. I know that there are a lot of people wanting to get up the train and you are probably late for work and you just want to squeeze up the train no matter how packed it is but can you please leave a little bit of space for me too? I don't want to spend the trip staring at your armpit/tummy/chin/breathing onto your face. Every morning as I travel to school I cannot help but flare while I'm on trains. And I'll start to spam Twitter with angry phrases. Even my friend is annoyed with me. BUT I JUST CANNOT CONTROL MY ANGER AT THESE PEOPLE. Social distance ALRIGHT, PLEASE LEARN.


I'm done for now because as I type this I'm getting too agitated. BYES

人生

人生不如意十之八九
我不知道这一切是不是上帝想要给我们的什么启示
但无论如何
我只希望任何考验到此结束
难道我们经历过的一切真的还不够多吗？
到底要我们再经历多少次失去？
正面的力量已经快要被消耗掉了
只希望
一切
都能好转
但我坚信
意志力
能够让他
苏醒。

温柔

如果你对我说 你想要一朵花 那么 我就会给你一朵花
如果你对我说 你想要一颗星星 那么 我就会给你一颗星星
如果你对我说 你想要一场雪 那么 我就会给你一场雪
如果你对我说 你想要离开我 那么 我会说 我会对你说
我给你自由 我给你自由 我给你自由 我给你自由  我给你全部全部全部全部全部自由
这就是我唯一能够给你的温柔 还给你的自由 我们之间 只剩温柔的问候 好吗

守护还是缘分？

有人说缘分是天注定，但是在现实的世界，
你以为真的靠天赐良缘，就可以终生美满吗？

所有可以修成正果的关系其实都是靠人为，
是靠两个人无时无刻的努力，用心经营，
当然不可以吊儿郎当，否则漫漫人生怎么可以天长地久守护对方？

守护一个人，重点是要守护到底，
不过说倒容易，做就很难，就算对朋友、对家人，
大大小小的考验根本数之不尽，不过只要你没有把考验当作伤痕，
懂得忘记和原谅，你已经掌握到守护一个人最大的窍门。
而且过后你也一定会感激有这些大大小小的考验，
陪你们一起成长，无论好日子还是坏日子，都有人和你并肩作战。

输了一场仗，赢了一场仗，都有人等你回来，和你一起笑一起哭，
你守护他，她守护你，多么温馨。
但问题是世界上到底先有缘分天使还是先有守护天使？
你是因为守护一个人，所以和他结缘？
还是因为你和他有缘，注定会守护对方一生一世？

Captain Koo 《冲上云霄II》

The end (SPOILERS)

goodbye my fav show for the year
goodbye my fav guy sam gor
goodbye my fav couple sam x holiday
goodbye triumph in the skies II

my life feels so empty now I have nothing else to look forward to

having real bad withdrawal symptoms again gahhhhhhhhh

I hope the next show can take my mind off this for a while :(

sweet

just a little comment for the ending. I felt the ending was a little too abrupt coz they wanted to end things off quickly. a lot of scenes were also not included and they went ahead to the end where everyone just got paired up happily etc. one of my favourite things was how they made Holiday realised that she loved Sam more during an about-to-die moment on the plane. I also loved how they made Sam and Jayden worked together to save the plane. it was so freaking awesome to see those two pilots controlling the plane together, 型到爆! also really loved the ending that they did by flashing back on all the small little moments in the past. and I loved how they made Jayden speak at the background in the end. he was so cool when he said he was going to protect the world and instead of 300 people, he was gonna protect 60 billion people. major love!

sorry for the spoilers. just couldn't resist.

skylette 223, ready for take off! (can't get this off my mind)

BYE

A little rant about my hong kong drama (SPOILERS)

Today's (or rather, last night's) episode of Triumph in the Skies was pretty interesting as compared to the last few episodes of the week. Right now the plot is so scattered and focused on a lot of things that I feel the scriptwriters are a bit confused themselves.

The characters are starting to go haywire a little. Sam and Holiday are becoming intolerant towards each other and they have quite a few arguments. Which I guess is so that the audience may feel that Jayden is gonna get a second chance. And even though I 99.99% believe that Holiday is going to end up with Sam, there is still a 0.01% convincing me that the ending may turn out to be different.

And the whole thing with Issac and Summer? Issac is being a total ass by making Summer do all the things that a MAN should be doing. I know he feels disappointed that Summer actually gave up on their relationship earlier just coz of an about-to-die Josie. But Issac is being so unmanly and self-centered because he doesn't place himself in Summer's shoes AT ALL. And although I know the scriptwriters just wanna make them get together at THE END, hence they start to create more problems between these two, these problems really piss me off a little.

And focusing on the small bits of Apple's love life and her reuniting with her brother is so pointless because nobody gives a damn. You know I'd rather watch them focus more on airplanes and whatnot.

I feel that the scriptwriters are focusing too much on irrelevant stuff, so much so that they themselves are unable to take care of so many details. That's why all the characters start to contradict and the plot starts to go haywire. I really hope the next few episodes wouldn't let me down and please give me a good ending. I don't wanna be so worked up over a drama that's gonna let me down eventually, PLEASE.


Right now I'm just having a flu and staying home to rest coz I have work tomorrow (yuck). On the bright side, it's an off day for me on Sunday coz I'm going to the bird park with my family. FAMILY DAY. I love spending time with my family. Tiiillll thhhennnnn xx

DTRM Retreat 2013

Yesterday I was a GL at the annual DTRM Bonding Day. I never thought I'd be selected as a GL because so many people signed up for it! And I can't be more thankful that the main comm decided to allocate 3 GLs to each group so that more people can participate and I guess that's why I got my chance!

It was a really exhausting day, doesn't help that the weather was crazily hot yet it drizzled a little at the same time. Waking up at 6.30am clearly didn't help as well. But I'm really glad everything went on smoothly and the freshies actually enjoyed themselves!

I was allocated to the same group as Chunen and Jasmine and we were the KNIGHTS! Didn't take any picture with the both of them but we took 2 group photos with our freshies!

Our group was one of the biggest groups coz a lot of freshies didn't turn up. All the GMs were shocked to see we had such a large number of people! Thank you so much to them for taking time out of your holiday to participate in this event! Honestly I really had a lot of fun with you guys and I really never regretted signing up to be a GL.

I think it's really heartwarming how every batch of DTRM students can bond together, not only just within their own class, not just within their own batch, but even bonding among seniors and juniors as well! I'm not a very well known senior and I have never been since primary school till now. But taking part in this event made me know a lot of you people and I honestly wish the best for your poly journey and I hope you guys won't ever regret joining the course.

It is always till the end that I start to realise how things are all worth the while and effort. I was really happy when you guys said goodbye and thank you to me when you all were leaving. And I swear we owe you guys a bigger thank you because it wouldn't be so fun without you guys! We'd always be the shining knights with our ever sounding CHING CHINGs!! ♥♥

while waiting for the freshies to arrive

after lunch time

after lunch time x2

Another memory added to my poly life! Cheeerrrrsssss

突然发现
就算告诉全世界
我已不再想念你
就算骗得了全世界
我心里已经没有你
却还是骗不了自己的心
其实每时每刻都还是思念着
有你的日子

Excitement *SPOILERS*

I am so sorry because I just finished watching episode 35 of Triumph in the Skies II and I can't contain my excitement and happiness so I am here to post some pictures. I am sorry if you haven't watched it so here's a disclaimer: SPOILERS AHEAD!!! (but if you don't intend to watch the show you can move on to see what I'm so crazily excited about)

Holiday wants their relationship to be announced to everyone else but Sam thinks it's not a good idea.
Holiday gets angry and picks up her books to leave. AND SAM KISSED HER ON THE CHEEK.

Yep guys gotta act cute sometimes right Sam you r cute enough ♥

Sam thanks Holiday for being understanding. Holiday requests for a kiss on her lips.

When Sam's about to kiss her, she shouts "SOMEBODY WILL SEE US" and runs off.

AND JUZ LOOK AT HIS SMILE AND HIS LAUGH LINES omg Sam you are my new found love ♥

Yep that's about my point. BYE I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEXT EPISODE BUT I HAVE TO WAIT OVER THE WEEKENDS SCREW MY LIFE

我好想你

Song of the month

我好想你 好想你 却不露痕迹

我还踮着脚思念 我还任记忆盘旋

我还闭着眼流泪 我还装作无所谓

我好想你 好想你 却欺骗自己

我好想你 好想你 就当作秘密

我好想你 好想你 就深藏在心

Triumph in the Skies II

I dislike flooding my blog with more than one entry per day but I can't stop myself from posting this entry! I'm so obsessed and addicted to TRIUMPH IN THE SKIES 2. So anyway, if you aren't a fan of my blog (loljk) or HK dramas then this entry isn't for you to read! Just making a disclaimer - you can still love my other entries ☺

It's been a real long time since I was last obsessed with a HK drama. I think the last was On Call 36 but that was so last year! And this year's dramas has been really disappointing thus far. It's already August and I didn't even watch more than 5 series. But anyway, I am seriously enjoying this series SO MUCH.

The characters are so awesome. Because it is a sequel, I am so glad they kept most of the casts and reintroduced new ones as well. Not to mention how good they are at acting, most of them kept their characters similar to the first season.

And even though Myolie came back as another character I'm glad they portrayed her as one of the main leads still. Her new character is a lot more different and she carried it off so well. In this sequel they also added in snippets of Myolie x Francis and she portrayed both Zoe and Summer really perfectly. The contrast between the 2 characters really impressed me a lot.

Many people have been criticising Fala Chen - her acting and why she replaced Myolie as the main female lead. I don't think there's anything wrong with Fala's acting because that's just how her character is supposed to be like. Her chemistry with Chilam Cheung and Francis Ng is amazing because those two are much more experienced than her. Even though I have to admit her crying scenes were pretty bad she actually did well for the rest of her character.

when he was finally letting go of the misery at the airport - just look at the expression. so heartaching.

Francis Ng's acting is the one that impresses me most. He brings out a lot of his characteristics and even the smallest details are taken care of. The way he misses his late wife and how he was unable to walk out of the misery during the start of the drama was good. The way he slowly walked out of it and started becoming a pilot again was good. The way he was serious about his work but can joke and laugh at home was good. Plus he looked crazily good in the pilot uniform, I'm about to go crazy soon.

Chilam Cheung is another crazily good looking guy. Too good looking for someone who's 42. He plays a playboy and a pilot who's crazily confident about himself. But at some points of the show you could see his weak points. How he actually cared for his sister and how he slowly fell for Fala Chen and stopped his flirting with all calefare girls.

And then we have the rest of the good looking pilots namely Kenneth Ma, Ron Ng and Him Law. And a lot of other new faces who are honestly not too bad looking as well. I love the little jokes they make among each other that really shows how strong their friendship is. Love the air stewardesses played by Nancy Wu and Elena Kong as well. I love how the show portrays the serious moments whenever they're working as well as the playful moments they have outside working hours.

And I am totally shipping the Francis x Fala pair as well as Nancy Wu x Him Law. I didn't expect myself to like Fala being with Francis so much because Francis was portrayed to be so in love with his late wife he may never ever open his heart to a second woman. But their interactions are really too cute to be true! I love Francis Ng's character so much he's like a stern looking man but with sweet little actions all the time /squeals/

I've never been a fan of Nancy Wu until recently. Her character in this show makes me love her like mad. Her pairing with Him Law is refreshing and totally good to watch! Couldn't find pictures of them to illustrate my point coz they have very few scenes. I can't wait for the two to be together, please quick!!

I never intended to do up such a loooong entry about this drama. That goes to show how crazy I am about this show. I hope someone is as addicted to it as me and can spazz like crazy with me! It's hard work having to wait ONE day for ONE episode. And it's gonna end soon, I think when it ends my world will end as well /CRIES/

I appreciate if you've made it thus far into the entry. Or maybe you just skipped through it to see what I have to say at the end (lol). Anyway, just go watch it if you really wanna see for yourself if it's really THAT nice. BEST DRAMA OF THE YEAR.

SQUEEEEAAAALSSSSSSS

Struggle

I am in a constant struggle of trying to feel happy and "fuck this I'm done with trying".

Life's been pretty bad. And I don't know how to put my feelings into words anymore. And I guess it's probably just my problem, that I don't give myself time to search for things that make me happy, that I rejoice in staying at home and feeling grumpy. And what's hard is I don't know if this is who I am or who I am trying to become. I need someone to light up the correct pathway that will bring me, eventually, to where I belong.

Did a quiz this morning to "what you are most afraid of living without" and my answer was 存在感. I don't know how to translate that into English. Sense of presence? Something like that. And my answer said that I'm someone who would try my best whenever doing something, and even if the outcome isn't what I expected, it'd be enough if someone noticed my efforts. And I thought that was true. I need attention. But I am constantly shying away from attention as well.

"But I was sure of something too: it’s a lot easier to be lost than found. It’s the reason we’re always searching, and rarely discovered - so many locks, not enough keys."

I am really apologetic to people who truly want me to be happy. Thank you for constantly trying to cheer me up and even though nothing seems to work anymore I just wanna say I truly appreciate whatever effort these people have put in to try to make me happy again.

I really hate now 

I really hate 2013

I really hate my poly life

I really hate myself

Growing up

I guess as times pass on, as we grow up, it's inevitable that we'll change as we all move along. We're no longer those young and carefree kids back then when we first met. We no longer carry bag packs with books instead of a laptop. We no longer put on uniforms and white school shoes. We no longer pull our hair back into a ponytail. We no longer laugh at the silliest things or cry over every small detail. We no longer run and sweat under the sun. We no longer poke our noses into everybody's business. We no longer have energy to wake up before the sky turns bright and stay awake for an entire day.

Right now, we are grown ups. We think a lot. We no longer smile at strangers, for fear of judging eyes. We no longer laugh out loud in public and we hold back our tears. We no longer complain about plain old school uniforms because we no longer have them. We spend so much time in front of our wardrobes every morning to dress up to impress people who'd only see the bad in us. We find it hard to talk about things because our minds were constantly on other people. We could no longer sit down for a 3 hour lunch because we'd be busy fumbling with our phones. We no longer walk down the streets near our homes because silence became awkward. We were no longer innocent and naive.

And slowly, we have found ourselves becoming people we once swore we would never become. And this is growing up. This is society. Welcome to reality. And cruelty.

Standstill

My life has come to a standstill and I feel I have no feelings anymore

Holiday

Hi guys. Anyway, my 2 months holiday started on Monday. So, today is the 3rd day already? Feels a little bit fast and slow at the same time... And even though I have to admit that I probably have nothing to do these days, I won't complain. Because this is the life I've been waiting for. And I just don't understand people who complain about holidays. It is so contradictory to complain about exams and now holidays. Please, stop contradicting yourselves. Ok, I digressed.

The main point of this entry is to show you my life now. The picture above ^ is what I see every day now. The TV is for my mom's entertainment, and that's my laptop. I blog, watch youtube vids, read blogs, read thoughtcatalog, visit my usual social websites, listen to music, watch dramas, arrange my playlists etc. It sounds like a lot of things to do yah? It may sound really boring to some of you. But to be honest, this is the kind of life I love.

Some days, I can not talk for the whole morning because my mom hasn't come home from work yet, and I'd feel so happy. Probably even happier if I hadn't check my social websites. People just tend to turn me off real badly. I notice a lot of things but I just don't mention them. Why are you tweeting about that? Why are you posting that picture on Instagram? All for only one purpose: to seek attention. Well, to seek whose attention, that's the question. Don't worry, I have no interest to find out.

I may be a nuisance in a lot of people's eyes. I understand that it's none of my business what people wanna post. If I don't like to read, I can always unfollow them. And that is exactly what I'll do.

Sometimes the world baffles me so much that I really prefer staying home and being by myself. That's probably the reason why I'll never get a boyfriend or get more friends. Guess I'm just better left alone.

I'm catching Triumph in the Skies II now and it's kind of addictive. Am recommending it to all HK dramas lovers! Another proud thing to mention is I can now watch HK dramas in CANTONESE without the subtitles! A HUGE ACHIEVEMENT. I love myself. Gonna end off with a song from the drama which I fell in love with almost instantly. Enjoy!


Go the ends of the world for you,
to make you feel my love

我想要说

 
我想要說 我想要說
如果沒有了你 我該如何往下走
那一秒鐘 有沒有發現我 倔強裡的問候
怎麼勸我放手 在這一切之後

Observance

I really like observing people around me. Whether I'm on the streets or on a public transport, I really like to look at people. See what they're doing, try to guess how their day went, wonder what's going on in their minds at the moment, why are they out and where they are heading to.

And sometimes, just by observing them silently, you can discover a lot of things. Their expressions, their voice (if you're lucky enough to hear them speak), their likes and dislikes etc. There are a lot of things about someone that you can discover, if only you put in effort to.

And it doesn't always have to be through conversations to get to know each other you know? Sometimes silence is a better mean of communication than talking. You will discover so much more beyond what talking will bring you. And most of the times you hear the most through silence.

Walking down the streets today, I observed couples. How they held hands, how they conversed, how they smiled or frowned at each other, how they walked, whether their steps were synchronized or not, how they were dressed.

And I found myself feeling very happy. I guess I was happy for them. That they had someone who love them enough to want to be with them. That they had someone who'd look into their eyes and smile genuinely. That someone would hold their hands and walk down streets. That they had someone whom they could talk to forever.

I felt the happiness and bliss just by walking past them. And it was really amazing.

Good quotes

I love discovering good music and good quotes

Part of why I always sit in front of the laptop

I believe there are still many hidden good ones I've yet to find

I will continue to find

And for as long as I can

I would always share them

With you

Parents

While doing the laundry this morning, my thoughts started to run wild again. I got reminded of a particular day a few years back when I was having lunch with my mom and my sisters at Vista Point. And my sisters and I got the craziest idea to ask my mom a question.

"你快乐吗？" (are you happy?)

We were being so dramatic I know. I don't even know what prompted that question. Probably because of some drama series we watched during that period of time but I truly cannot remember anymore. Just take it that we have too much dramatic genes in us. But you know, I am glad we asked.

She nodded her head pretty seriously and said "还不错" (not bad)

My family isn't one who is really open-minded like the American society. We don't really express our love for each other, though you see it clearly in all our actions and conversations. Beneath all the jokes and laughter, you feel our love and bond strongly.

We know that saying not bad actually already meant good. And we were so happy we asked. Who wouldn't be glad to hear that your mother is happy? Even if it was for that few seconds I believe it was worth it.

天下无不散之筵席 

快乐这个东西 是得来不易的

或许快乐就像我们的生命一样 

这一秒你拥有 但下一秒很可能就会失去

所以 请好好珍惜好吗 

那一阵子的快乐 

To be very honest, my parents are already 57 years old this year. And I am only 18.

Every time my friends tell me their parents' ages, I am really envious. Maybe coz they are probably gonna have so much more time with their parents than me. And I would really give in anything for my parents to just have a few years more time with me. And every time I meet someone whose parents are of or about the same age as my own, I heave a sigh of relief. At least someone knows how I really feel.

I am honestly very scared of this day arriving. You know? The day when my parents will no longer be with me. I don't know how I am going to continue living. I don't know how I am going to continue being me. I don't know how I am going to cope with it.

And that is probably why as long as I can, I will make time to come home for dinner and I will make time to accompany my parents as best and as much as I can. And this is also probably why I cannot stand people who are always complaining about their parents or who cannot wait to move out of their house and live on their own.

I really don't get it because even if they always nag at you or they always expect a lot from you, they are still your parents. They gave you a life and they brought you up so without them you wouldn't even be here today.

Please cherish your parents while you still can. I am not trying to be a noble person here saying all these but really. If you don't spend time with them now then when? They aren't gonna be there forever. And they aren't gonna stop growing old. As you are growing up, they are growing old and getting weaker. Don't wait for the day to come and then tell yourself you're gonna regret for a lifetime.

Nothing will ever be more important than your parents, than your family, trust me.

崇拜

风筝有风

海豚有海

我存在在我的存在

所以明白

所以离开

所以不再为爱而爱

Reminder

真正重要的东西 

是肉眼无法看见的

只有用心灵

才能看清事物的本质

"What is essential is invisible to the eye."

Only people who really love you will see the good in you

So put those people who hate you aside

They grow the hatred in you and make you their level

Surround yourself with people who bring out the best in you

And stop getting miserable over people who don't matter

I think you know that I like you

So why are you pretending to not know it

It makes me really miserable

For I have never given a clearer hint 

Than this

The Girl in Pinafore

Had my first paper yesterday and it was bad. Basically because there were too many things to memorise and I obviously didn't have the brain to do that. I don't know why my course had to be so cruel and give us tons of projects followed by tons of tests. Nevertheless, what's over is over. Now I just can't wait for 19th August ☺

Had dinner at SocialHaus with Evonne afterwards. It's been a really long time since I last went out with her...yep with all the projects and whatnots, everyone's busy with their own lives. But glad we still manage time to catch up with each other!! The food was not bad and the service was great! So was the ambiance and I'm sure it'd have been better if it was at night.

Left right after our dinner coz we were going to catch The Girl in Pinafore!! I loved the movie.

I am really not a patriotic person. But whenever August 9 arrives, I more or less would start to appreciate Singapore a little better. This movie helped me to remember a lot of things I knew from my childhood days. The Singapore oldies, the corded telephones, pagers.

I really loved all the settings in the movie, just the simple decoration of their rooms make everything very Singaporean styled. The way they spoke in a Singaporean slang. How they did not really censor out the vulgarities and whatnots. I loved it. I loved the songs, the casts and the plot.

It is unrealistic and realistic all at the same time. Unrealistic because how many people would actually give up studies to pursue their dreams in Singapore? Because education is so important here. Yet on the other side, you truly see people who did give up their studies. And these people are the ones who became successful. There were probably a load more people who did the same and it's just that, we don't know them.

The acting was superb. I love Julie Tan. Needless to say!! I think every Singaporean should watch it. Meaningful and yep, patriotic, but you know, Singapore is our home and we should really appreciate it more.

"只要有心 没有不可能的事"
//
好像我们长大后 成熟后 就不再像从前一样 什么都能说 什么都能笑 可能大家各自都成家立业了 没有时间像以前那样随时出来见面 可能吧
这就是成长的代价


On a side note: Selamat Hari Raya to all muslim friends! ☺

a late-night confession:

i love you 

with every breath I take

with every heart beat

with every ounce of energy I have left

i love you

"能够在一起的每一天

都觉得一定还会有明天

所以

反正也还不知道他的心意

就这样子一天拖过一天

都没有时间跟他说明 

自己喜欢他的心情

直到现实

迫不得已把你们分开

心里的声音才会大声的告诉你说

其实你很想他"

Easily my favourite idol drama for the year

Too sweet, very sweet

《真爱黑白配 EP 09》

Problem

My biggest problem is....

whenever anyone talks bad about someone on a social platform....

I AUTOMATICALLY THINK IT'S ME......

I have such a big problem I think I have depression or something

I AM SO MISERABLE

I hate

I hate to love you 

I hate how you are so easily remembered 

I hate how little things always remind me of you

I hate the way you make loving you so easy and loving me so hard

I hate the way you talk, making everything seem a little more interesting

And most importantly of all I hate how I cannot stop loving you

The Fault in Our Stars

I finished reading The Fault in Our Stars this afternoon.

The moment I closed the book, I found myself immersed in it deeper than ever. The story is so amazingly beautiful that I find myself looking back again and again after I've finished reading it.

The book made cancer seem like it's not that scary after all. And that even with cancer people can still live on amazingly and bravely. Even with cancer people can have dreams and love. And eventually you realise that cancer only makes people stronger, not weaker.

I love the book. I love the story. I love the characters. I love the development. I love the ending. I love the words. There were a lot of vocabulary I didn't know about, and I obviously didn't have the patience to check up each and every meaning. I lived with it. It was amazing. Despite not knowing what it means sometimes. Because things may get worse if you look at it from a clearer view.

To end it off with an excerpt I like a lot:

""There will come a time," I said, "when all of us are dead. All of us. There will come a time when there are no human beings remaining to remember that anyone ever existed or that our species ever did anything. There will be no one left to remember Aristotle or Cleopatra, let alone you. Everything that we did and built and wrote and thought and discovered will be forgotten and all of this" - I gestured encompassingly - "will have been for naught. Maybe that time is coming soon and maybe it is millions of years away, but even if we survive the collapse of our sun, we will not survive forever. There was time before organisms experienced consciousness, and there will be time after. And if the inevitability of human oblivion worries you, I encourage you to ignore it. God knows that's what everyone else does.""

Two-way

I always read that if you love someone or if you really cared about someone, you'd talk to them all the time, and you'd want to talk to them all the time. You'd talk about everything and anything in the world. Every little detail. Even if this particular thing may not even be of any concern to that someone, but because you love him/her, you wanna tell them, because it made an impact in your life, because this little thing happened to you.

But I was also wondering. If we really loved someone, would we give up the chance of telling them about our life and listen out to theirs instead? Because I have realised this is what I do most of the time. I listen to people I love. And I wanna listen, I wanna know. I'm not just hearing them, I'm listening, listening to the details, to how they talk about it, just so I truly feel how they felt at that point in time.

And if someone spends time talking to you about his/her life then it clearly shows this person cares about you too, right? If not, why would h/she bother?

Anyway, so just after writing this entry I've come to a conclusion that this thing, this talking and listening thing that I've just mentioned, is a two-way thing. Both parties share and both parties listen. There should be no domineering. There should be a balance between the two. When one speaks, the other listens, truthfully, sincerely, with all attention. When one finishes, the other starts. No interruption, just smooth and ongoing conversation.

That is, I supposed, the highest level anyone can reach in a relationship?

P/S It's been such a long long time since I was this serious in writing something. And I am glad. I like this entry. What about you?

"Okay, would be our always"

-- The Fault in Our Stars, John Green

十万毫升泪水

song of the month 滿意了嗎　你究竟有完沒完
你煩不煩　總考驗我多勇敢
有那麼難　那麼幸福和美滿
我不貪婪　只求多些夜晚　不鼻酸　不孤單
我想要的快樂很簡單 你都不管

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I dislike people who are childish.
I dislike people who are not serious all the time.
I dislike people who are fake and pretentious.
I dislike people who contradict themselves.
I dislike people who don't reflect upon their own actions.
I dislike people who don't give other people a chance to explain themselves.
I dislike people who don't have their own thinking and just follow everyone else.
I dislike people who don't have ambitions or don't pin any hopes on themselves.
I dislike people who just 得过且过 (muddle along cr: google translate) everyday and don't know where they'll be heading to in the future.
I dislike people who are not humble.
I dislike people who are over-confident when in fact, they aren't that great in the first place.
I dislike people who dislike those they cannot agree with.
I dislike people who always think they are always right.
I dislike people who base people's actions according to their own morals.
I dislike people who get close to people who were originally closer to me.
I dislike people who always want things to go THEIR way.
I dislike people who cannot shut up for even a minute.
I dislike people who joke about EVERYTHING. There are some things that cannot be joked about.
I dislike people who are not filial.
I dislike people who don't respect other people.
I dislike people who only want the best for themselves.
I dislike people who are selfish.
I dislike people who act like they are very noble.
I dislike people who dislike those that get whatever limelight h/she doesn't get.
I dislike people who talk about other people behind their backs.
I dislike people who cannot face criticisms.
I dislike people who lead other people into thinking that this particular person is bad and then changes his/her own opinion afterwards.

Basically, I have this list that will never end - people whom I dislike.

I sure dislike a lot of people.