It has never been easy writing a year end entry, yet I have done it every year without fail ever since secondary school simply because I'm a very reflective person. I do a lot of reflecting...not only just at the end of every year but almost every night before I go to sleep. I reflect on what I have done that day, what I have said to people and how I could have said it better. I trust this is how I grow to become a better person as I age.
Being 19 years old is a contradiction itself. Just like a year before, I am no longer a child nor am I qualified enough to be an adult. Being stuck in between made me feel like shit most of the time. 1) I was pretty lost...having zero idea about how I am going to lead my life afterwards 2) I still dealt with things in a childish manner... 3) I am still a very home person..it takes a lot for me to come out of my comfort zone 4) I still am very anti-social...
Looking back... I would rank 2014 as one of the happiest and enriching years I've been through. Not only do I feel I have become more matured, I have also grown to be braver and stronger. Looking back... I used to be a very timid person. Through the things I have experienced in 2014, I truly feel they have made me accept myself more for who I truly am and how I should stop sacrificing myself for the happiness of others.
School
2014 marked my last year in Poly which made me both happy and unhappy all at the same time. Happy because I was finally going to get out of this hellhole and that I could finally graduate and move on. Unhappy because I have never felt this lost in my entire life and because even though I know I was going to move on I kept questioning myself about where I wanted to go to and worst of all? I didn't have an answer.
I grew a lot closer to my project mates. Despite being the only group with 5 people in the class, we surprisingly managed every project without quarrels or strong arguments. It is definitely inevitable to have disagreements and different opinions among the 5 of us, however I am glad we always took it lightly, reaching a consensus eventually without breaking out into disputes. Coming towards the end of our academic semester, I was even a little upset that we will never be able to work like that together again. But all in all, I am glad we pulled through the last semester together.
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| SQM Presentation - The Hoteliers |
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| GOM Presentation - The Black Mourners |
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| RM Presentation - The Skiers |
In my last academic semester, I also fell out with 2 friends. Even though I still think of our friendship once in a while, after all we did go through a few ups and downs together as friends, I would say it is a decision I will still make if I were to go through it all over again. Through this dispute I realised that sometimes no matter how much you try, things will never work out the way you want them to, and most of the times it is not because you didn't try enough, but because things were just never meant to be in the first place. Just like the scientific theory of how magnetic north poles will always repel each other. I also trust that sometimes, losing one thing will make you gain another. So a loss is not always a bad thing. I do thank them for making me see through things a little better now. I also trust I will learn to deal with things on a wiser and more mature perspective.
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| Goodbye DTRM 04 |
Part Time Job
In 2014 I finally had to leave my part time job at Omakase Burger. This place gave me so much memories, both good and bad. It was never a choice but a need to leave. Having spent 2.5 years of my youth here, it definitely made me a better person. Working here has made me more talkative, more socially active, more opened to meeting new people, increasing my EQ and more inclined to undertake hardship and weariness.
Omakase Burger also brought me so much closer to my #omakasegals. I trust it was fate that brought us together. All the days we spent in the kitchen working our asses off and rolling our eyes at annoying customers, all the stupid and nonsensical things we do together in public or at work, all the late night k and bowling sessions (because we can only hang out after 10pm all the time) and of course, all the complaints and rants we go through together...
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| Our farewell for Panda |
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| Our farewell for Ah Wei |
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| Our late night dim sum supper |
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| Our work moments |
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| The last day of everyone at Grandstand |
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| Our first and probably last Staycation.. |
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| Our late night Oovoo sessions |
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| Our stupid moments |
Family
In 2014 my family finally waved goodbye to the upsetting events we have been going through. We moved on from grievance and decided that being happy and creating happy memories was all that will matter in the end. We planned more overseas trips, family gatherings and parties so we could see each other more often. Not only were the planners always very enthusiastic, the participants were always cooperative as well. Cheers to finally a splendid year we managed together.
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| We spent CNY in Kukup |
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| We went to BKK without my Dad |
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| We went to Genting |
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| Mother's Day |
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| Father's Day |
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| Our Christmas Party |
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| 我的家人 |
Internship
In 2014 I also ended Poly academics and started internship. It was a whole new chapter in life and a whole new experience for me. Truly heading out into the society, not with my parents, not with my teacher, not with friends, not with people I always depended on, but all by myself. Stepping into the company on the very first day had me more nervous and afraid as ever.
However, things definitely turned out way better than I imagined. People were all very nice and patient towards me, always encouraging me to do better, comforting me whenever I make mistakes and protecting me when it comes to customer conflicts.
Having spent the last 3 months of 2014 here at Giamso, I am glad to say I have amazed myself with my adaptation skills and my positivism. How I have comforted myself through the hard times, how I pulled through the first few weeks which was a period of strangeness and unfamiliarity and how I adjusted my mentality to make the best out of these 6 months. I would say I have not let myself down up till this point in time.
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| Had an opportunity to attend Star Cruises Premiere of Cookin' Nanta show |
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| My happy pills at work |
Friends
As usual, ever thankful for the people I have spent 2014 with. I would say that you people are the ones I will always hold close to my heart no matter how far apart we are, be it now or in the future. You people have shown me exactly how one does not need to have many friends to be happy. Even with just the few of you, I am assured of how much love you guys have given me throughout the year. Thank you for allowing me to see how important is it to always surround myself with people who truly love and care about me. I have also learned that friendships are not measured by how many times you see each other but by how much laughter one can bring to you each time you meet. Thank you for all the laughter/tears of joy we have shared.
To end this super long ass entry off...
I just want to say I am thankful for the people and things around me this year that have helped shape me into a better person. I am also thankful to have survived 2014 with good health. In 2014, I have learned to love myself more because only when you start to love yourself can you begin to love another.
In 2015, I resolute to 1) figure out a path for myself... 2) be a little bit more socially active... 3) take more trips overseas... and 4) spend more time with my parents.
Lastly, I hope for good health not only for me but for everyone around me in the upcoming year because health is the biggest fortune you can ever have in life.
Thank you 2014 and looking forward to a more enriching and amazing 2015.
