Friday, August 30, 2013

突然发现
就算告诉全世界
我已不再想念你
就算骗得了全世界
我心里已经没有你
却还是骗不了自己的心
其实每时每刻都还是思念着
有你的日子

Excitement *SPOILERS*

I am so sorry because I just finished watching episode 35 of Triumph in the Skies II and I can't contain my excitement and happiness so I am here to post some pictures. I am sorry if you haven't watched it so here's a disclaimer: SPOILERS AHEAD!!! (but if you don't intend to watch the show you can move on to see what I'm so crazily excited about)







Holiday wants their relationship to be announced to everyone else but Sam thinks it's not a good idea.
Holiday gets angry and picks up her books to leave. AND SAM KISSED HER ON THE CHEEK.
Yep guys gotta act cute sometimes right Sam you r cute enough ♥
Sam thanks Holiday for being understanding. Holiday requests for a kiss on her lips.
When Sam's about to kiss her, she shouts "SOMEBODY WILL SEE US" and runs off.
AND JUZ LOOK AT HIS SMILE AND HIS LAUGH LINES omg Sam you are my new found love ♥

Yep that's about my point. BYE I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEXT EPISODE BUT I HAVE TO WAIT OVER THE WEEKENDS SCREW MY LIFE

Thursday, August 29, 2013

我好想你


Song of the month
我好想你 好想你 却不露痕迹
我还踮着脚思念 我还任记忆盘旋
我还闭着眼流泪 我还装作无所谓
我好想你 好想你 却欺骗自己
我好想你 好想你 就当作秘密
我好想你 好想你 就深藏在心

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Triumph in the Skies II

I dislike flooding my blog with more than one entry per day but I can't stop myself from posting this entry! I'm so obsessed and addicted to TRIUMPH IN THE SKIES 2. So anyway, if you aren't a fan of my blog (loljk) or HK dramas then this entry isn't for you to read! Just making a disclaimer - you can still love my other entries ☺


It's been a real long time since I was last obsessed with a HK drama. I think the last was On Call 36 but that was so last year! And this year's dramas has been really disappointing thus far. It's already August and I didn't even watch more than 5 series. But anyway, I am seriously enjoying this series SO MUCH.

The characters are so awesome. Because it is a sequel, I am so glad they kept most of the casts and reintroduced new ones as well. Not to mention how good they are at acting, most of them kept their characters similar to the first season.


And even though Myolie came back as another character I'm glad they portrayed her as one of the main leads still. Her new character is a lot more different and she carried it off so well. In this sequel they also added in snippets of Myolie x Francis and she portrayed both Zoe and Summer really perfectly. The contrast between the 2 characters really impressed me a lot.


Many people have been criticising Fala Chen - her acting and why she replaced Myolie as the main female lead. I don't think there's anything wrong with Fala's acting because that's just how her character is supposed to be like. Her chemistry with Chilam Cheung and Francis Ng is amazing because those two are much more experienced than her. Even though I have to admit her crying scenes were pretty bad she actually did well for the rest of her character.

when he was finally letting go of the misery at the airport - just look at the expression. so heartaching.

Francis Ng's acting is the one that impresses me most. He brings out a lot of his characteristics and even the smallest details are taken care of. The way he misses his late wife and how he was unable to walk out of the misery during the start of the drama was good. The way he slowly walked out of it and started becoming a pilot again was good. The way he was serious about his work but can joke and laugh at home was good. Plus he looked crazily good in the pilot uniform, I'm about to go crazy soon.


Chilam Cheung is another crazily good looking guy. Too good looking for someone who's 42. He plays a playboy and a pilot who's crazily confident about himself. But at some points of the show you could see his weak points. How he actually cared for his sister and how he slowly fell for Fala Chen and stopped his flirting with all calefare girls.

And then we have the rest of the good looking pilots namely Kenneth Ma, Ron Ng and Him Law. And a lot of other new faces who are honestly not too bad looking as well. I love the little jokes they make among each other that really shows how strong their friendship is. Love the air stewardesses played by Nancy Wu and Elena Kong as well. I love how the show portrays the serious moments whenever they're working as well as the playful moments they have outside working hours.


And I am totally shipping the Francis x Fala pair as well as Nancy Wu x Him Law. I didn't expect myself to like Fala being with Francis so much because Francis was portrayed to be so in love with his late wife he may never ever open his heart to a second woman. But their interactions are really too cute to be true! I love Francis Ng's character so much he's like a stern looking man but with sweet little actions all the time /squeals/

I've never been a fan of Nancy Wu until recently. Her character in this show makes me love her like mad. Her pairing with Him Law is refreshing and totally good to watch! Couldn't find pictures of them to illustrate my point coz they have very few scenes. I can't wait for the two to be together, please quick!!

I never intended to do up such a loooong entry about this drama. That goes to show how crazy I am about this show. I hope someone is as addicted to it as me and can spazz like crazy with me! It's hard work having to wait ONE day for ONE episode. And it's gonna end soon, I think when it ends my world will end as well /CRIES/

I appreciate if you've made it thus far into the entry. Or maybe you just skipped through it to see what I have to say at the end (lol). Anyway, just go watch it if you really wanna see for yourself if it's really THAT nice. BEST DRAMA OF THE YEAR.

SQUEEEEAAAALSSSSSSS

Struggle

I am in a constant struggle of trying to feel happy and "fuck this I'm done with trying".

Life's been pretty bad. And I don't know how to put my feelings into words anymore. And I guess it's probably just my problem, that I don't give myself time to search for things that make me happy, that I rejoice in staying at home and feeling grumpy. And what's hard is I don't know if this is who I am or who I am trying to become. I need someone to light up the correct pathway that will bring me, eventually, to where I belong.

Did a quiz this morning to "what you are most afraid of living without" and my answer was 存在感. I don't know how to translate that into English. Sense of presence? Something like that. And my answer said that I'm someone who would try my best whenever doing something, and even if the outcome isn't what I expected, it'd be enough if someone noticed my efforts. And I thought that was true. I need attention. But I am constantly shying away from attention as well.


"But I was sure of something too: it’s a lot easier to be lost than found. It’s the reason we’re always searching, and rarely discovered - so many locks, not enough keys."


I am really apologetic to people who truly want me to be happy. Thank you for constantly trying to cheer me up and even though nothing seems to work anymore I just wanna say I truly appreciate whatever effort these people have put in to try to make me happy again.

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

I really hate now 
I really hate 2013
I really hate my poly life
I really hate myself

Monday, August 26, 2013

Growing up

I guess as times pass on, as we grow up, it's inevitable that we'll change as we all move along. We're no longer those young and carefree kids back then when we first met. We no longer carry bag packs with books instead of a laptop. We no longer put on uniforms and white school shoes. We no longer pull our hair back into a ponytail. We no longer laugh at the silliest things or cry over every small detail. We no longer run and sweat under the sun. We no longer poke our noses into everybody's business. We no longer have energy to wake up before the sky turns bright and stay awake for an entire day.

Right now, we are grown ups. We think a lot. We no longer smile at strangers, for fear of judging eyes. We no longer laugh out loud in public and we hold back our tears. We no longer complain about plain old school uniforms because we no longer have them. We spend so much time in front of our wardrobes every morning to dress up to impress people who'd only see the bad in us. We find it hard to talk about things because our minds were constantly on other people. We could no longer sit down for a 3 hour lunch because we'd be busy fumbling with our phones. We no longer walk down the streets near our homes because silence became awkward. We were no longer innocent and naive.

And slowly, we have found ourselves becoming people we once swore we would never become. And this is growing up. This is society. Welcome to reality. And cruelty.

Standstill


My life has come to a standstill and I feel I have no feelings anymore

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Holiday


Hi guys. Anyway, my 2 months holiday started on Monday. So, today is the 3rd day already? Feels a little bit fast and slow at the same time... And even though I have to admit that I probably have nothing to do these days, I won't complain. Because this is the life I've been waiting for. And I just don't understand people who complain about holidays. It is so contradictory to complain about exams and now holidays. Please, stop contradicting yourselves. Ok, I digressed.

The main point of this entry is to show you my life now. The picture above ^ is what I see every day now. The TV is for my mom's entertainment, and that's my laptop. I blog, watch youtube vids, read blogs, read thoughtcatalog, visit my usual social websites, listen to music, watch dramas, arrange my playlists etc. It sounds like a lot of things to do yah? It may sound really boring to some of you. But to be honest, this is the kind of life I love.

Some days, I can not talk for the whole morning because my mom hasn't come home from work yet, and I'd feel so happy. Probably even happier if I hadn't check my social websites. People just tend to turn me off real badly. I notice a lot of things but I just don't mention them. Why are you tweeting about that? Why are you posting that picture on Instagram? All for only one purpose: to seek attention. Well, to seek whose attention, that's the question. Don't worry, I have no interest to find out.

I may be a nuisance in a lot of people's eyes. I understand that it's none of my business what people wanna post. If I don't like to read, I can always unfollow them. And that is exactly what I'll do.

Sometimes the world baffles me so much that I really prefer staying home and being by myself. That's probably the reason why I'll never get a boyfriend or get more friends. Guess I'm just better left alone.

I'm catching Triumph in the Skies II now and it's kind of addictive. Am recommending it to all HK dramas lovers! Another proud thing to mention is I can now watch HK dramas in CANTONESE without the subtitles! A HUGE ACHIEVEMENT. I love myself. Gonna end off with a song from the drama which I fell in love with almost instantly. Enjoy!


Go the ends of the world for you,
to make you feel my love

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

我想要说

 

我想要說 我想要說
如果沒有了你 我該如何往下走
那一秒鐘 有沒有發現我 倔強裡的問候
怎麼勸我放手 在這一切之後

Monday, August 19, 2013

Observance

I really like observing people around me. Whether I'm on the streets or on a public transport, I really like to look at people. See what they're doing, try to guess how their day went, wonder what's going on in their minds at the moment, why are they out and where they are heading to.

And sometimes, just by observing them silently, you can discover a lot of things. Their expressions, their voice (if you're lucky enough to hear them speak), their likes and dislikes etc. There are a lot of things about someone that you can discover, if only you put in effort to.

And it doesn't always have to be through conversations to get to know each other you know? Sometimes silence is a better mean of communication than talking. You will discover so much more beyond what talking will bring you. And most of the times you hear the most through silence.

Walking down the streets today, I observed couples. How they held hands, how they conversed, how they smiled or frowned at each other, how they walked, whether their steps were synchronized or not, how they were dressed.

And I found myself feeling very happy. I guess I was happy for them. That they had someone who love them enough to want to be with them. That they had someone who'd look into their eyes and smile genuinely. That someone would hold their hands and walk down streets. That they had someone whom they could talk to forever.

I felt the happiness and bliss just by walking past them. And it was really amazing.

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Good quotes


I love discovering good music and good quotes
Part of why I always sit in front of the laptop
I believe there are still many hidden good ones I've yet to find
I will continue to find
And for as long as I can
I would always share them
With you

Parents

While doing the laundry this morning, my thoughts started to run wild again. I got reminded of a particular day a few years back when I was having lunch with my mom and my sisters at Vista Point. And my sisters and I got the craziest idea to ask my mom a question.

"你快乐吗?" (are you happy?)

We were being so dramatic I know. I don't even know what prompted that question. Probably because of some drama series we watched during that period of time but I truly cannot remember anymore. Just take it that we have too much dramatic genes in us. But you know, I am glad we asked.

She nodded her head pretty seriously and said "还不错" (not bad)

My family isn't one who is really open-minded like the American society. We don't really express our love for each other, though you see it clearly in all our actions and conversations. Beneath all the jokes and laughter, you feel our love and bond strongly.

We know that saying not bad actually already meant good. And we were so happy we asked. Who wouldn't be glad to hear that your mother is happy? Even if it was for that few seconds I believe it was worth it.

天下无不散之筵席 
快乐这个东西 是得来不易的
或许快乐就像我们的生命一样 
这一秒你拥有 但下一秒很可能就会失去
所以 请好好珍惜好吗 
那一阵子的快乐 

To be very honest, my parents are already 57 years old this year. And I am only 18.

Every time my friends tell me their parents' ages, I am really envious. Maybe coz they are probably gonna have so much more time with their parents than me. And I would really give in anything for my parents to just have a few years more time with me. And every time I meet someone whose parents are of or about the same age as my own, I heave a sigh of relief. At least someone knows how I really feel.

I am honestly very scared of this day arriving. You know? The day when my parents will no longer be with me. I don't know how I am going to continue living. I don't know how I am going to continue being me. I don't know how I am going to cope with it.

And that is probably why as long as I can, I will make time to come home for dinner and I will make time to accompany my parents as best and as much as I can. And this is also probably why I cannot stand people who are always complaining about their parents or who cannot wait to move out of their house and live on their own.

I really don't get it because even if they always nag at you or they always expect a lot from you, they are still your parents. They gave you a life and they brought you up so without them you wouldn't even be here today.

Please cherish your parents while you still can. I am not trying to be a noble person here saying all these but really. If you don't spend time with them now then when? They aren't gonna be there forever. And they aren't gonna stop growing old. As you are growing up, they are growing old and getting weaker. Don't wait for the day to come and then tell yourself you're gonna regret for a lifetime.

Nothing will ever be more important than your parents, than your family, trust me.

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

崇拜


风筝有风
海豚有海
我存在在我的存在
所以明白
所以离开
所以不再为爱而爱

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Reminder

真正重要的东西 
是肉眼无法看见的
只有用心灵
才能看清事物的本质

"What is essential is invisible to the eye."

Only people who really love you will see the good in you
So put those people who hate you aside
They grow the hatred in you and make you their level
Surround yourself with people who bring out the best in you
And stop getting miserable over people who don't matter

Monday, August 12, 2013

I think you know that I like you
So why are you pretending to not know it
It makes me really miserable
For I have never given a clearer hint 
Than this

Thursday, August 8, 2013

The Girl in Pinafore

Had my first paper yesterday and it was bad. Basically because there were too many things to memorise and I obviously didn't have the brain to do that. I don't know why my course had to be so cruel and give us tons of projects followed by tons of tests. Nevertheless, what's over is over. Now I just can't wait for 19th August ☺

Had dinner at SocialHaus with Evonne afterwards. It's been a really long time since I last went out with her...yep with all the projects and whatnots, everyone's busy with their own lives. But glad we still manage time to catch up with each other!! The food was not bad and the service was great! So was the ambiance and I'm sure it'd have been better if it was at night.

Left right after our dinner coz we were going to catch The Girl in Pinafore!! I loved the movie.


I am really not a patriotic person. But whenever August 9 arrives, I more or less would start to appreciate Singapore a little better. This movie helped me to remember a lot of things I knew from my childhood days. The Singapore oldies, the corded telephones, pagers.

I really loved all the settings in the movie, just the simple decoration of their rooms make everything very Singaporean styled. The way they spoke in a Singaporean slang. How they did not really censor out the vulgarities and whatnots. I loved it. I loved the songs, the casts and the plot.

It is unrealistic and realistic all at the same time. Unrealistic because how many people would actually give up studies to pursue their dreams in Singapore? Because education is so important here. Yet on the other side, you truly see people who did give up their studies. And these people are the ones who became successful. There were probably a load more people who did the same and it's just that, we don't know them.

The acting was superb. I love Julie Tan. Needless to say!! I think every Singaporean should watch it. Meaningful and yep, patriotic, but you know, Singapore is our home and we should really appreciate it more.

"只要有心 没有不可能的事"
//
好像我们长大后 成熟后 就不再像从前一样 什么都能说 什么都能笑 可能大家各自都成家立业了 没有时间像以前那样随时出来见面 可能吧
这就是成长的代价


On a side note: Selamat Hari Raya to all muslim friends! ☺

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

a late-night confession:
i love you 
with every breath I take
with every heart beat
with every ounce of energy I have left
i love you

Monday, August 5, 2013

"能够在一起的每一天
都觉得一定还会有明天
所以
反正也还不知道他的心意
就这样子一天拖过一天
都没有时间跟他说明 
自己喜欢他的心情
直到现实
迫不得已把你们分开
心里的声音才会大声的告诉你说
其实你很想他"

Easily my favourite idol drama for the year

Too sweet, very sweet

《真爱黑白配 EP 09》

Sunday, August 4, 2013

Problem

My biggest problem is....

whenever anyone talks bad about someone on a social platform....

I AUTOMATICALLY THINK IT'S ME......

I have such a big problem I think I have depression or something

I AM SO MISERABLE

Friday, August 2, 2013

I hate

I hate to love you 
I hate how you are so easily remembered 
I hate how little things always remind me of you
I hate the way you make loving you so easy and loving me so hard
I hate the way you talk, making everything seem a little more interesting
And most importantly of all I hate how I cannot stop loving you

Thursday, August 1, 2013

The Fault in Our Stars

I finished reading The Fault in Our Stars this afternoon.

The moment I closed the book, I found myself immersed in it deeper than ever. The story is so amazingly beautiful that I find myself looking back again and again after I've finished reading it.

The book made cancer seem like it's not that scary after all. And that even with cancer people can still live on amazingly and bravely. Even with cancer people can have dreams and love. And eventually you realise that cancer only makes people stronger, not weaker.

I love the book. I love the story. I love the characters. I love the development. I love the ending. I love the words. There were a lot of vocabulary I didn't know about, and I obviously didn't have the patience to check up each and every meaning. I lived with it. It was amazing. Despite not knowing what it means sometimes. Because things may get worse if you look at it from a clearer view.

To end it off with an excerpt I like a lot:

""There will come a time," I said, "when all of us are dead. All of us. There will come a time when there are no human beings remaining to remember that anyone ever existed or that our species ever did anything. There will be no one left to remember Aristotle or Cleopatra, let alone you. Everything that we did and built and wrote and thought and discovered will be forgotten and all of this" - I gestured encompassingly - "will have been for naught. Maybe that time is coming soon and maybe it is millions of years away, but even if we survive the collapse of our sun, we will not survive forever. There was time before organisms experienced consciousness, and there will be time after. And if the inevitability of human oblivion worries you, I encourage you to ignore it. God knows that's what everyone else does.""