Proper

Hey guys. Sorry I haven't been putting up proper entries in such a long time. Holidays really can't get me sitting down and writing proper.

Anyway, I'm sitting in front of the laptop right now! It's been a real long time because it's the holiday. And I'm always either working or just lazing on the couch doing nothing. That's how my holiday has been thus far. Yep, boring.

I'm here tonight because I reminded myself of how I'm a words person more than a pictures person. While I was in the shower, I had a sudden realisation that I have so many pictures in my blog nowadays, as compared to my previous blogs.

Work has been treating me alright. Life has been as well. It's just that I'm starting to miss the past a lot more recently. My friends, my school, how worry-free I was then. In comparison to my life right now, I can't even put them into words properly.

People said the past would always seem to be better. Unless you start looking into the future. But right now, I can't even see where my future lies and how it would turn out to be. Because if the present makes me so depressed then how can I rely on the future? I really want to just time travel back to the past. To where I truly felt happy...

But happiness is a choice. I have to think happy thoughts. That's what life is all about, yeh?

I hope life has been great for all of you people out there that I love. Till the next time I have something to talk about.

I can be

For you, anything I can be.

Pisces

双鱼座不是没脾气，是为了爱放低自己的脾气；双鱼天生有敏感的视觉，只要对方生气或不削稍微一点表情神态，一下就看穿；即使双鱼很低落，但只要你愿意花心思哄他逗他，心情马上就会好一大半；有时双鱼心情不好只想一个人承受不想烦着谁，双鱼是个矛盾体很严重的人，喜欢不断在脑海里想太多。 

双鱼座的人：害怕孤独，好想依赖人，却从来不曾真的去依赖，因为已习惯独立孤独。双鱼座的人：总是很任性和小孩子气的固执，即使鱼座的人总凭感觉认定着所有的人和事。双鱼座的人：很胆小又害怕失败但表现出来都是强悍的一面。双鱼座的人：看似坚强，内心却会很易受伤。 

双鱼装傻装糊涂是真正的的高手，双鱼的观察力可以说是12星座最强的星座。对方稍有不慎，敏锐的双鱼心里已经替你出局了，极度讨厌虚假的人，却从不拒绝这样的人，这就是双鱼，天真的眼神中带着聪慧的头脑，遇强则更强的万王之王。 

双鱼座不擅表达，如果你能感觉双鱼对你三分的喜爱，事实上会有五分；如果你能感觉到五分，事实上会有七分。双鱼是不会坦白的，会淡化感情的表达，会压抑自己的情绪。双鱼座只会对别人宽容，却不会对自己宽容。对自己要求挺严格的，经常和自己过不去，别问理由，双鱼自己也不知道。 

双鱼女是个需要人保护的孩子，任性，爱花钱，怕黑，怕寂寞，有精神洁癖；双鱼座外表漂亮女人，内在其实很单纯，简单，世界在她们的眼里也很简单；双鱼座不喜欢复杂，习惯性的对别人好，从来不知道自私是什幺；双鱼座大人和老人缘很好，但是小朋友缘却不好，很惹男生心疼。

I love reading horoscopes because it not only helps me to get to know myself better but always makes me feel so much better about myself. It makes me accept my own flaws because this is who I am. If you love me, please learn to love my flaws, if not it isn't love anymore.

Bolded words are so true I can't even

If you'd like to read yours feel free to visit my facebook I've shared it! http://www.facebook.com/tohyiqian

Work

Head Chef: Touching my hair
Me: My hair damn soft right?
Head Chef: /shocked/ WAH YOU REALLY BUAY PAISEH

#littlejoysatwork

I turned 18!

Yesterday, I finally turned 18!

It was a long day. It was a happy day. It was the day when I feel the most blessed, most special and most loved. I have so much to say, so much to express, but just how do I do it?

I don't know if I'm a positive or a negative person. I have my ups and my downs. I am someone who doubts myself and the people around me a lot. I am someone who needs assurance all the time. I have high expectations of those I love because I know I'm willing to do as much. I get disappointed easily because I expect too much. Such are flaws of me, yet people are willing to love them. It is not easy to love me, and yet yesterday, I saw so many of you who did.

My family, never ever expressing their love but making me feel it effortlessly. Asking about my plans for the day because if I had none, you guys would be there. If I had plans, you guys don't complain. I know my happiness was important to you people just like how yours were important to me. Thank you papa for giving me an angbao. Your love was never expressed but felt sincerely all the time. Thank you mommy for giving birth to me because that was probably the best gift you gave to me, a life. Thank you to my sisters, adoring me despite my stubborn and capricious personality. Thank you, for being my family.

Thank you PZ and Von. For coming up to my house with my fav orh lua. For PZ's surprise candle with no cake. For PZ's special gift. For PZ's appearance despite his busy schedule. For your existence. For coming into my life. For loving me for who I am. I cannot thank you enough. My times in Riverside were probably the happiest period in my life and I cannot be luckier and happier to say that I met both of you there. You guys should and would know how much this friendship means to me. I love love loveeee you both! ♥

Thank you to my piggies even though only some of you turned up. I am really not disappointed or angry that the rest couldn't make it because I know you guys have school and everything and we're all really busy with our lives right? It's the thought that counts and I have really received it. Thank you Mengwee for that phone call. Thank you for calling me even when you were so busy in school. Thank you Joohan for sending me the text late at night right before my birthday ended. Thank you Beina and Kangling for coming down even though you guys had school. Thank you for the card, the gifts and the balloons. I love you guys for bringing so much happiness and joy to me not only on last night but for my entire life as well ♥

Thank you Kelvin, Xiaoqin and Elaine for coming down!! I admit I was most shocked seeing the three of you. It was so heartwarming. Seeing you guys made all the memories come back. The times when we laughed together, sang together, studied together, teased Kelvin together. Those memories will never be replaceable and I'm so sure I'm not gonna find anyone else like you guys. Thank you Crystal for the birthday wish even though you couldn't make it. I truly appreciate everything!!! Thank you for the sunflower as well, it is so beautiful and bright, just like our friendship! ♥

Thank you SALK. I never knew you guys would come down. On this special day, for me, with my other friends. I never knew you guys planned something. To be honest, I never once imagined we'd become friends when I first entered Poly. But you guys came and made it possible. You guys made Poly a better place. Thank you Fiona for the hello kitty sculptures and the card. Thank you Josephine for the "友情客串". Thank you Stephanie for getting me such pretty items!! I love everything especially the hello kitty contact lens case! Thank you HuiTing for the balloon and cake I suppose? I don't know which present is from who exactly but I LOVE them all!! I love you guys for being the happy pill to my poly life ♥

Thank you my favouritestestestestest bestestestestest friend. I really cannot thank you enough. Most of my dedications have been for you so I'm going to cut this short because I know if I start, I cannot stop and everything will go out of hand. You know too right? Nothing has mean more to me than your love and our friendship. Nobody would ever go to the extent of making a video, doing up a blog entry, knowing what I like best, planning surprises with my friends of different schools, accompanying me home and helping me to carry my stuff to my house, and just being there with me on this special day. "Please know that I love you more than anything else in the world." Thank you for being in my life and I want you here forever! ♥

Thank you to the rest of the people who made an effort to wish me on instagram, twitter, facebook or via text, I have received all the blessings and I love all of you! Thank you to those who remembered the day. Thank you to those who only knew me for a day or two and still wishing me. Well, some knew me for 2 years and happily forgot about it. Thank you regina bb for wishing me on the dot via text + twitter. Your words never fail to touch my heart.

After yesterday, I finally realised how important it was to remove my birthday on facebook. To see who bothered and who didn't. I am not a calculative person, but I have always believed in doing what you want others to do to you. It is not what you did that matter, but what you want to do that is most important. I know now who means more and who means less, who truly cared and who just didn't wanna waste their time. I know who truly loved me and who didn't. Thank you to those who love me.

To end this off, I have my 3 wishes ready.
1) Those I love, and those who love me, to be healthy and happy always.
2) My parents to live to a ripe old age.
3) To never disappoint, to never fail, people who love me.

Last but not the least, I still can't believe I'm 18.

DTRM Chapters

So I attended the DTRM Chapters Bonding Day on Saturday and I was so glad I went for it!

Initially in the morning, I was super dreading it, especially when I had to wake up at such an early hour... I was dreading the whole meeting-new-people and having to bond again process. And I was dreading how it is gonna be all the usual ice-breakers and amazing race/running man kind of games.

But I was actually pretty surprised that the games turned out to be more fun than expected. There were more creativity in the games. The Mass Game was particularly interesting and people were so enthusiastic in participating.

Even though my group didn't win in the end...and no other groups won as well because the "SPIES" won it...but I am glad I bonded with my group in the end!!! It is heartwarming to know that there are still many people worth knowing in this world and it is never too late to make new friends you know?

I hope DTRM Chapters is gonna be a brand new chapter in my life and would constantly add joy and laughter to my poly days. And after that bonding day, I am pretty sure I'm in the right course ☺

Presenting to you my group's flag in accordance to the day's theme "Angels & Demons" - We R CHUCKIES!!!!

My GL #01 Jolyn!!!

My GL #02 Aaron!!!

Group photo x1

Group photo x2

I can't be any happier to say I made such wonderful new friends!!! Much loves <3



Tomorrow is my birthday and I'm at home now!!!! I'm so contradicting because on one hand, I feel so lifeless but on the other hand, I feel really happy to be at home nuaing the day away.... Because my favourite thing to do is having nothing to do. TeEHee

Anyway, so looking forward to my birthday dinner with piggies tomorrow! ♥

Would blog about it soon! Till then people XX