Sunday, September 14, 2014

20 facts about ME

- just before I posted this entry I got tagged! Haha so anyway I'm gonna do it -

Everyone's doing the 20 facts about themselves meme on Instagram and truth be told I'm super tempted to do one as well but no one around me has tagged me yet (lol sorry for being narcissistic). 

Anyway, despite not being tagged I'm still gonna do it. Not because I'm obliged to but because I just feel like I want to. Actually, it's pretty interesting to read so... I hope people wanna read mine too? Haha so thick-skinned oops. 

But... Doing it on Instagram will (sort of and kind of) ruin my feed coz of the super long caption and stuff so I guess writing it on my blog will be neater and easier to read too? Right let's get to it. 

(Before that, I actually did this meme too when I was in sec 4. I was on MSN with the best friend and we were bored so we both did up an entry on this topic. After reading through it just now I almost puked right there and then coz omg I was really childish back then.)

1. I hate crowds. 

I really hate places that are squeezy, crowded and noisy. I feel a little claustrophobic whenever I'm surrounded by people and I'll get frustrated immediately. I will also avoid entering shops that are filled with people. 

2. I can use the chopsticks the correct way. 

Traditional or not...I feel it's an important skill Chinese people should have. I used to use it the wrong way and I actually spent a week learning it. Now I can't pick anything up without using it the right way. 

3. I will turn my head around whenever I hear people speaking Cantonese. 

Cantonese is my favourite dialect even though I'm not one myself. I learned it through watching TVB dramas and I absolutely love hearing people speak it because it's just...nice. 

4. I walk relatively fast. 

I hate slow walkers and slow walkers who block up the pathway. Even if I'm not in a rush I walk as if I'm rushing. I just can't stand taking my own sweet time to walk. 

5. I have been hospitalized before (other than when I was born). 

When I was in secondary 3, I had chronic appendicitis and I went for a small operation and was hospitalized for 2 weeks or so. Didn't attend school for almost a month after that. It was probably the best and worst "holiday" I ever had. 

6. I am skinny like hell. 

Please don't judge me when I say I don't get fat no matter what I eat because it's true lol. It runs in the genes so there's really nothing I can do about it. I also eat like a normal person (or perhaps even more than some people). I just don't get fat. 

7. All my grandparents have already passed away.

This may or may not be a surprise to some of you but 1) I've never seen my paternal grandpa before because he passed away real early 2) my maternal grandparents passed on when I was still in primary school so my memories about them are really vague now 3) my paternal grandma (also the one I remember most) passed on when I was in secondary 2. It was the saddest event my family had to go through and even up till today I still think of her once in a while. 

8. I believe in horoscope. 

I am super interested in horoscope and I love it when I meet people who're like that as well. I can talk to people on this topic forever and never get bored. I believe in it a lot as well....and I'm a piscean. 

9. My ambition as a child was to be a housewife. 

Whether or not you find it a joke, I thought I was pretty firm on this one last time. People around me all had great dreams about being a doctor, teacher or singer. But what I told my mom was "I wanna be a housewife" hahaha. 

10. I will never eat salmon in my entire life. 

Period. 

11. I cry easily. 

Too emotional to do great things, I'd say. I cry super easily when watching movies or dramas. I also cry when I miss home or my mom too much. There was once when I took a bus to tuition with my mom coz she was on the way to work too. I cried to myself after she alighted. wtf I know. 

12. I have been single all my life. 

I don't know how much of a shock is this to people who may not know me well enough but...I don't know why either. I guess the time just isn't right yet. I hope it comes soon though. 

13. My family comes before everything else. 

I am one who will give up all other appointments or events for my family. Don't be surprise if I tell you our trip needs to be cancelled coz I have to spend time with my family. So I guess I can only be friends with people who agree with me on this one. 

14. I need a lot (I mean A HELL LOT) of time with myself. 

I don't really like to go out coz I need to spend a lot of time with myself just doing things with myself. Like nuaing on the bed and watching shows and not talking for as long as I can lol. I also prefer traveling to school/work alone so I can just listen to music and think about stuff. 

15. Chinese was my best subject in school. 

It has been my best subject my entire life. I could easily score an A without studying. I'm not trying to boast though (coz it really isn't something worth boasting). I guess I'm just gifted in the language :-)

16. My favourite music band is Mayday. 

Love them no matter what. I'd pay any price to go for their concerts and put aside anything to listen to their music firsthand and buy their albums etc. Just anything a normal fangirl does. 

17. I used to know how to play 扬琴. 

I was in the Chinese Orchestra in primary school and I loved it. I enjoyed going for practice sessions and improving my skills. I am on grade 3 for the instrument but I stopped because my secondary school didn't offer Chinese Orchestra as a CCA. It's probably my biggest regret in life. 

18. I love horror films/stories but am scared of ghosts. 

I guess most people are guilty of this? I'm scared of ghosts but I love watching horror films and getting people to tell me their ghost encounters, haha. 

19. I stay on the first storey. 

Most of my friends were pretty surprised when I first told them about this so I guess this might be a fun fact? I'm glad I don't have to take the lift home every day hahaha. 

20. My favourite show of all time is 还珠格格 (except the third season and the new version). 

I like it so much to the extent that I've rewatched it countless times and can remember most of the lines and also what happens in each episode, lol extreme much. 

Friday, September 5, 2014

SOTM: 缺口


"我們間沒有一見鍾情的藉口"

"我們完全不同卻難以抗拒"

"妳就是妳 
我才能是我
彼此都是彼此的缺口"

"想和妳一起撐傘漫步雨中 默默牽手走過"

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

I am sorry.

The most contradicting thing as a person is you never know how you're truly feeling or what you truly want. Sure you see someone attractive and you're attracted. You start conversing and you find that hey he's not too bad. But you know that this thing is not gonna go anywhere. And when people start to ask Are you really going for it? Do you like him? And that's when you start to question yourself. How is it that I'm truly feeling? I don't know. I enjoy your accompaniment and I enjoy talking to you. I get disappointed when you're not talking to me and I miss you when you're not around. Things like these make me sad and make me wonder if I have truly fallen. But still I am unsure. I don't want to guarantee anything and I don't want to make a statement because I may not feel like this anymore 10 days later. But then again, what if I still do 10 years later? Some things just cannot be foreseen. 

I am sorry I am starting to miss your presence. I am sorry I want your attention now. I am sorry I crave talking to you and hearing your voice and seeing you and standing next to you. I am sorry all these are happening so quickly I don't know how to react or how to assure my own feelings. I am sorry that falling in love is all about a moment's thing and not a lifetime of development. I am sorry that I am only starting to love you now when you've just left...for good. 

I am sorry that sometimes even if you love him, you cannot be with him. I am sorry that loving someone and being with them are two whole different concepts difficult to achieve. I am sorry.