Time woes

My mom's not working today. So it's just me and her at home. But I'm going to leave the house at 3pm for work. I feel so bad every time I leave my mom alone at home.

My mom likes to say she's better off alone at home and prefers us all out but who is she even kidding, I know deep inside her she loves our company. And since both my sisters are busy with work and school, I feel I have the obligation to accompany her. Be it to listen to her rants about work or updates about MH370 or other world news. I cringe thinking she'll have to spend the afternoon alone at home waiting for my dad to come home. I cringe even more thinking they'll have to go for dinner themselves. Woes of an overly attached daughter.

I have never wanted myself to be so dedicated to my part time job but they are really in need of manpower now. So it is just irresponsible for me to not help when I have the time to spare. But really, I want to spend my time in areas I want to. I don't even want to think about the money as a form of motivation. It's my time being wasted on things I don't like and I don't like this feeling.

For all who're wondering, I'm very busy with my part time job because Omakase Burger is now at iLight Marina Bay and the crowd every night is overwhelming. It is definitely tiring but I have no reasons not to work. I can't wait for this week to end so I can spend more time at home with myself or my family. Time I will enjoy spending.

Results were out this morning while I was still sleeping soundly. Heard my phone buzzed and took a tiny peep at it and heaved a sigh of relief. My semester gpa sure dropped but thankfully I maintained my cumulative gpa. I told myself I need to do better in my last semester. I hope I do.

Feeling a little more emotional today than normal days. I hope it rains later in the afternoon. Bye for now.

Quiz

I am so bored! Looked through my entries in Livejournal a few years back and cringed so much at myself last time. I chanced upon this quiz thing which was super popular during my secondary/primary days? I wanted to give it a try again to see how much I've changed over the years.

I certainly grew a lot in my thinking and stuff but all in all, I'm really still me. Haha. I just can't stand how many emoticons I used last time, wtf is ^.^ LOL oh my god /stabsself/ And a lot of my answers were very attention seeking I KNOW, I am no longer like this please don't judge me thanks!!!

1. Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms?
2010: Do not think so
2014: My mom's/dad's?

2. Who is your last message from?
2010: -censored-
2014: Keeli OMAKASE

3. Have you bought any clothing items in the past week?
2010: Erm......can't remember but I do not think I did :>
2014: Nope

4. What’s on your mind right now?
2010: Food, so hungerly
2014: Song lyrics

5. Does anyone like you?
2010: Wo bu zhi dao
2014: I don't think so haha

6. Does the last person you held hands with mean anything to you?
2010: Oh friggin' yeah she's my mom ^.^
2014: Somewhat? One of my relatives lol

7. Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy?
2010: I think I DID, now how dumb
2014: I think any time you enjoyed wasting isn't time wasted so nope

8. When was the last time you had butterflies?
2010: This morn' :<
2014: My first day reporting to work at MBS lol

9. Anything you’re giving up on?
2010: HOMEWORK, HA
2014: Not at the moment

10. Are you waiting for something?
2010: Dinner
2014: Waiting for April to arrive

11. Do you have trust issues?
2010: Yes, like HUGE issues *criiies*
2014: I open up to who I want to but once he/she crosses the limits then the trust will no longer be there anymore

12. Do you care what people think about you?
2010: Yeah I do, but I'm trying very hard to not care n' just be me, juz' gimme some more time
2014: I care, but I still go on to do what I want in the end

13. Are you happy with life?
2010: Not really, I'm a sad girl
2014: Not very happy but contented

14. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
2010: Yeah I do
2014: Yes

15. Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now?
2010: No
2014: No

16. Does anyone know your password besides you?
2010: My sis hehe
2014: Yes haha

17. Are you close with your mom?
2010: Definitely yo
2014: Yes

18. Are you missing someone?
2010: Mmm I guess I am...or no I'm not, really, OKAY I AM
2014: Yes

19. Where did you last sleep other than your house?
2010: I can't really remember I think it was a longgggggggggggggggg time ago
2014: Centrepoint Pratunam BKK lol

20. Do you get distracted easily?
2010: Yeah especially when I'm working on hmwk lolololol
2014: When I'm doing something I don't like then yes

21. What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
2010: Talked to my sis? Or somethin'
2014: Check Twitter/Instagram

22. Are you jealous of anyone?
2010: Yes :<
2014: Yes

23. Who were you with last night?
2010: Myself, my dad n my sis, actually, juz' myself
2014: My colleagues from Omakase

24. Have you ever had a black and white cat?
2010: No
2014: Nope

25. Who was the last baby you held?
2010: Can't rmb lol my cousin's baby?
2014: I can't remember it's been really long

26. Have you ever had your heart broken?
2010: Yes
2014: Yes

27. Your thoughts of long distance relationships?
2010: I think it won't last, right?
2014: 只要有心 没有什么是做不到的

28. When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
2010: Ah ma's funeral if I remembered correctly :'(
2014: A few days ago when I watched My Sister's Keeper

29. Is there drama in your life right now?
2010: Wo bu dong leh
2014: Nope

30. Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past month?
2010: Nope
2014: Nope

31. How often do you talk on the phone?
2010: Very not often lol
2014: Seldom

32. What are you looking forward to in the next week?
2010: Saturday coz I'm gonna 拜 my grandmother :> After so long.............
2014: Tomb sweeping day with my family (yes I'm super shocked with this answer!)

33. Who was the last person who kissed you on the cheek?
2010: Dunno, don't care HAHAHA
2014: Wah...I think nobody did before? Maybe my mom when I was still a baby? Haha

34. Are you drunk?
2010: Noooo
2014: No!

35. Eating anything?
2010: Nope
2014: Nope

36. Drinking anything?
2010: My saliva
2014: No...wtf my answer in 2010...

37. What are you wearing?
2010: Normal home-clothing
2014: Sports for Life tee with fbt shorts

38. Any jewelery on you?
2010: Bracelet(made by regina wee) n earringsss
2014: Earrings

39. What’s your hair like?
2010: In braides :>
2014: I just realised I answered this qn wrongly in 2010 wtf, anyway shoulder length hair with side bangs

40. What song are you listening to?
2010: 离别的车站 I'm so oldie
2014: 憨人 - 五月天

41. Do you wear make up?
2010: Nooope
2014: No

42. Has anyone ever seen you in your underwear?
2010: My sistaz n my mom? HAHAHAHAHA
2014: My sisters and my mom lol and maybe my surgeon when I was hospitalised wtf

43. Are you a difficult person, or are you pretty simple?
2010: Pretty simple
2014: Pretty simple

44. Do you see yourself as a strong or weak person?
2010: I think I'm both, so stupid
2014: Both, depends on which areas

45. What are your thoughts on big drug users? Do you feel bad for them?
2010: Yeah I do, they must be craziiie
2014: I feel bad. No matter how stupid I think it is I know there must be a reason why they turned to drugs in the first place.

46. Are your parents there for you or are they/ one of them always gone?
2010: THERE FOR ME oh yeah <3
2014: They are always here for me

47. When you get hurt, do you cover it up or do you let it out?
2010: Cover.it.up
2014: Hurt as in injury or heartbreak? I tend to cover it up I think

48. Has anyone ever said to you, “_____, You’re going down the wrong path”?
2010: Perhaps? Maybe? Hm........................
2014: I don't think so

49. Do you remember all of the little things people tell you, or the long speeches?
2010: Little thingz from long speeches? hehe
2014: I remember all the little things

50. If you HAD to get a piercing RIGHT now, what would it be?
2010: Helix?
2014: Helix

51. Are you the type of person who does bad things, then has troubles facing the consequences?
2010: Actually yeh, I'm a bad kid n yez I h8 myself
2014: No

52. Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
2010: Yes everyone understandz
2014: Yup

53. Do you write how you speak?
2010: Not really I speak very cheenaly HAHAHAHAHA
2014: Yes and no haha

54. Why are you the way you are?
2010: Because my mama born me like that (loooooolz)
2014: Coz this is who I am!

55. Is there someone you’d like to fix things with?
2010: Yes lor, you lah
2014: Yes

56. What kind of mood are you in?
2010: Sian diao mood
2014: Touched

57. Other than yourself, who was the last person you took a picture with?
2010: My clazzmatez
2014: Rachel OMAKASE

58. What were your first thoughts when you woke up this morning?
2010: How ah no mood for hmwk
2014: Why my sis never go work LOL

59. Have you ever liked someone who wasn’t good to you?
2010: Yez coz I'm a very 笨女孩
2014: Nobody's ever not good enough for someone else

60. How’s your heart lately?
2010: Pumping regularly, good
2014: I always think I have heart problems but till now it seems fine I really hope it is

61. Are you a cuddler?
2010: Mmmmmmm?
2014: I think so hahaha

62. Will this weekend will be a good one?
2010: Please be :>
2014: I'll be working so I think NOT

63. Would you rather go back two weeks, or go forward two weeks? Why?
2010: Forwaaaaaaaaaaaaard, go go go
2014: Forward

64. Are you easily confused?
2010: Yes :<
2014: Yes lol

65. What are you listening to right now?
2010: Same ol' song yo
2014: 伤心的人别听慢歌 - 五月天

66. Are you wearing jeans right now?
2010: No lah so hot hehe
2014: Nope

67. Do you laugh at all the wrong times?
2010: Sometimes n then I'd be so embarrassed, right like who wouldn't?
2014: Sometimes yes lol

68. If you could change your eye color what would it be?
2010: I've got zero idea perhaps I'll just let it stay the same
2014: Yeah I'll let it remain the same

69. What’s the last thing that got on your nerves?
2010: My sis singing very loudly when I'M TRYING TO SING HAHAHAHAHA
2014: My bloody work schedule for this week

70. Where’s your phone?
2010: In my baggie
2014: On my desk

71. What do you want right now?
2010: Food
2014: Nothing

72. Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
2010: Not really, I kinda dislike phone calls
2014: Depends on who I am talking to

73. Have you ever asked a guy for advice?
2010: Yeh
2014: Yup

74. Are you happy with the way things are going now?
2010: Not really :(
2014: Yup

75. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
2010: No
2014: Yes

76. What is your favorite type of music?
2010: 老歌 coz I'm an old person
2014: Mandopop

77. If you were kicked out of your current residence, whom would you call?
2010: I seriously have no idea at allz maybe Ashlie lol
2014: My mom lol

78. Have you ever lost contact with someone you wish you didnt?
2010: Yez lah so sad right
2014: Yes

79. Personal opinion confessions?
2010: Heh?
2014: I loveeeee confessions

80. Last person you hugged?
2010: My sistaz
2014: Evonne

81. Last person you went to the movies with?
2010: Forgot wang ji liao
2014: My elder sis

82. Last person you went shopping with?
2010: Mei mei
2014: My mom and sisters in bangkok lol

83. Last person you talked on the phone with?
2010: Dunno
2014: Mommy

[Review] Storm in a Cocoon

Having a strong urge to blog something but recently I have no motivation to. No topic to talk about. Ugh.

Been catching a new TVB drama recently which I like a lot. Storm in a Cocoon - talks about the 1920s when folk customs were still very conserved and they believed in values such as when you kill someone you've to die no matter what if not there'll be injustice and there were many traditional moral values that modernism will find funny. However, you feel for the people then, their loyalty and how they take feelings very seriously.

Throughout the show I feel so much for women. In that era, women had low statuses. Their only dream in life is to be able to find a good man to marry. If you've chosen a bad guy, that's it, there is nothing you can do because you have to follow your man forever. If your man passed away, you'll have to be a widow forever as well. Women have no right to speak and it was a very sexist generation. I am so glad I am born in an era where there is equality.

A drama that talks about business ethics, love, kinship, friendship, betrayal, loyalty and how the main lead goes through many many obstacles just to save the reputation of his family's business.

Highly recommended for any TVB lovers :-)

Embedding the sub-theme song which I like a lot for you guys hehe.


啦啦啦 啦啦啦　落大雨
啦啦啦 啦啦啦　水浸街
啦啦啦 啦啦 擔柴上街賣
啦啦啦 啦啦啦　著花鞋

SOTM: 我的秘密

  我們之間的距離好像忽遠又忽近
你明明不在我身邊我卻覺得很親
Ha~ 這一刻我真的想說明
我心裡的秘密是你給的甜蜜

我們之間的距離每天一點點靠近
這是種別人無法理解的特殊感情
Ha~ 我要讓全世界都清晰
我心裡的秘密是我會一直深愛著你

Frozen

Sitting here
With countless thoughts running across my mind
But as I set my fingertips onto the keyboard
They get frozen
With utmost intention to write out something
I could not
I am still
and frozen
I don't know
How else
I can
Express myself
Anymore

[Review] You Who Came From The Stars

Disclaimer: This entry is going to be solely on the drama I've been obsessing over lately. Please do not read on if you have seen and heard enough of this Korean drama which you would probably have guessed without me mentioning the name. *MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD*

And yes, that is none other than YOU WHO CAME FROM THE STARS.

If you have known me since a couple of years ago, or maybe even months ago, you would know that I am seriously an anti-kpop person. I don't listen to any kpop songs nor watch any kpop shows nor think any kpop idol is cute or worth going crazy over. And the main reason is really just because I cannot understand Korean, so I see no point in going gaga over kpop. Also because I feel all of them looked pretty the same and I always ask my friends how they differentiate their idols from the rest hahaha.

So when this show started getting SO popular and all everyone was talking about around me was this show, I naturally shut my ears and eyes away from all their comments, resisting the ~sensation~ everyone was having over this show. Even though I must admit I am a very easily influenced person, I resisted a long while before I finally decided to just watch it.

Simply because EVERYONE was talking about it! And by EVERYONE, I literally mean all the people around me, everywhere, be it real life, or on social media, every single day I would at least chance upon ONE tweet or ONE instagram picture about this drama. Even celebrities from all over the world were talking about it! Which led me to think "is it really THAT good?"

And I decided to just watch it, to see for myself just how good it is.

And tadang, I am so obsessed now. (nope not with kpop, just this show in particular)


I guess everyone sort of know about the synopsis of the show so I'm gonna skip that. In the beginning, I knew the drama just basically revolved around the love story of an alien and a celebrity. BUT, there were a lot more to it! Not just about love, but also about friendship, kinship, sacrifices, mystery etc. I was really hooked onto the show the moment I started.


I feel the story was really well-written, despite it being very unrealistic, but still, I've always believed that aliens DO exist, just not as hot as the one in the drama, hahaha. And what I particularly liked about the alien part was also how the scriptwriter restricted himself and did not go overboard with the alien's superpowers and all that. All the normal people in the show kept asking Do Min Joon if he could do this or that but really, all those special powers were purely just in our imagination and really just do not exist.


The cast were also well-picked. I think all of them carried our their roles really well, be it the main leads or the supporting roles, even the evil guy and the other characters. They all worked really well to bring out the distinctiveness of the plot. One particular character I really liked besides the main leads was Jang Young-mok.

He plays the lawyer + good friend of Do Min Joon for 30+ years and has been loyal to him since. The chemistry between the two was really good. Of course, Do Min Joon was supposed to be older than him, but he portrayed himself to be like a father to Do Min Joon, which was very heartwarming. Taking care of him when need be and knowing Do Min Joon's real identity and still befriending him while keeping it a secret.

This was one of my favourite scenes from the show. Slowly losing his capabilities towards the end, Do Min Joon lost his ability to transport to the correct places he wanted to go and landed up in a totally strange place with no proper winter wear and shoes. Jang Young-mok appears with a winter jacket, scarf and shoes for him.

Lawyer Yang: I almost died that day, you bought for me rice with soup, although I don’t really know your abilities at that time, you saved me and my mother… Can I hold on your hand for a while..?

Do Min Joon: Someone said before, you have to say goodbye in advance, because when you are really leaving in the end, you won’t be able to leave anymore. Thank you, I will never forget you.

This scene touched my heart so much. Not only was Lawyer Yang a friend to Do Min Joon, but more like a father too. The chemistry between the two made me feel how strong their friendship was. I will never be able to imagine a dear friend of mine leaving for good and I was able to feel Lawyer Yang's pain, so much so that he finally could not resist his tears anymore.

Of course what I particularly really loved was the love between Do Min Joon and Cheon Song-yi. Seriously, who wouldn't love this pairing? They were perfect!

I love how Do Min Joon was portrayed to be a really cold person at first. Just going about living his own life and not giving a damn about any other people around him. He purely just wanted to lead his last 3 months on earth peacefully and leave. Who knew Cheon Song-yi appeared and turned his personality 360 degrees around. I love how he slowly became nicer and nicer towards Cheon Song-yi whom he was very mean to in the beginning.

The little things he did for her without her knowing were very sweet. From the beginning, humiliating her in front of the whole class because of her copied report, talking to her in a very mean voice and asking her to turn away because he was going to press his password for his door lock, till the part his actions started to give way, bringing her to the hospital and staying there overnight with her, disallowing Kim Soo-hyun to enter the ward, allowing her to stay in his house, started to eat meals with her, remembered her scolding him for flipping the fish around, buying a mobile phone because of her, saving her countless times from all the danger, encouraging her and being by her side when the hate comments got really bad, and slowly finding himself falling for her, stopping time just to kiss her, to delete the text message he sent her, imagining a future with her, preparing a proposal for her, all of these were just SO cute.

Their love was so tough. Towards the end, I was really crying for them in every single episode because they loved each other so much and tried so hard to be together but so many things were in their way. How Do Min Joon tried so hard to protect her from the evil guy, how Do Min Joon tried to stay on for her despite his health slowly depreciating, how Do Min Joon told her it was okay for him to stay on earth, how Cheon Song-yi then found out that he was going to die if he stayed on and made the decision for him to leave just so he would be able to live on forever.

They carried out their crying scenes so beautifully it was hard not to go with their emotions and cry with them. One of the scenes which I cried really really badly was the day before he was going to leave.

It was SO touching! Just the look of their expressions was enough to kill my emotions thoroughly. I don't know how is it that some people can act SO god damn well. How do you even pretend to be in love with someone you are not in love with? How do you look him in the eyes with so much pain and tell him you love him? Just how? They did it so perfectly.


I also really liked how they kept flash-backing to Do Min Joon's past. With all these flashbacks, you find the story slowly revealing itself and will start to make more sense. I loved how Do Min Joon and Cheon Song-yi have this "exclusive interview" at the end of every episode. I loved the attentiveness of the producers, slowly revealing the purposes behind each action of Do Min Joon, e.g. why he asked her to open the car boot haha, and also how Cheon Song-yi saw the "I miss you" text at the end when she was looking through his phone. The arrangement of the plot was really special, instead of the usual "flow" of every typical drama, the way they did it with this show was splendid and unique. It kept me very captivated throughout every episode.


And definitely the ending? Perfect. I was so afraid that the ending was going to suck, with Do Min Joon leaving for good bla bla bla. But they made a plot twist in the end and the two still got together. Lovely!

aww so sweet!

I don't know how long more I am going to be obsessed over this show but it honestly is very good. This is the first Korean drama I've watched (seriously) and I never thought I'd be so in love with it. The OST for the show was perfect as well! Argh I am so in love with Do Min Joon and Cheon Song-yi!! How can anyone be so perfect but oh my god they just are.

I am rating this show with 5 stars out of 5 so anyone out there who are still resisting the show I really recommend you to watch it! Ending this LOOOONG entry with the epilogue's screen shots hehe.

NINETEENTH B'DAY

Hello! SO...it was my 19th birthday yesterday! (but I changed the date to 5th march) Can't believe I'm already 19 omg I could still remember my 18th celebration and in the blink of an eye a year just passed by like this! One last year left before I hit the TWO so I better cherish the days!!

In the afternoon I had an exam paper so I spent the morning doing real last minute studying...the paper was kinda screwed up so...let's skip that!! Anyway, while at school, a lot of people kept wishing me and even though I felt a little awkward I still really appreciate all the wishes! Thank you guys for making me feel so loved! ♥

After the horrendous paper, I went to Group Therapy with my girlies for a late lunch!! We actually wanted to go for korean bbq at Tanjong Pagar but it was closed...(wtf bad luck) so we walked a super long way before deciding to settle down at Group Therapy, which I'm glad we did!

Here's what we ordered, hahaha too many eggs! But the food was really good! As well as the ambiance and decoration of the cafe and the service! I had a really good time there with them just talking about random things and then just before we wanted to leave, they brought out a mini tart for me (awww)

Before they started singing the SONG, I was like "shhh damn awkward!!" and they still sang it....but at a very soft volume HAHA THANKS GIRLIES. The place was not big so if they sang it at the top of their voices I'd have buried myself under the ground...

with my ah tim!

fiona!

steph!

and josee!

thank you girlies! so much love!

Really so thankful to have met them in Poly because I guess without them I'd have been so much more miserable. They make my bad days so much better and I shall cherish our last year together! Definitely wanna celebrate more birthdays with you guys and I hope we will! ♥

After walking around Orchard and Scape with Fiona and Josee, I went off to meet Evonne and the rest for dinner at Timbre!

So while we were waiting for the food to come, they passed me my gift....in a super nice and expensive looking box. I knew it was going to be a watch, but TO MY DAMN SURPRISE, this was what I saw in the box.

wtf minion toy watch

So they got me to wear it for the rest of the night and I did okay! Haha I really thought this was it...I know I'm damn gullible ugh. Until they pulled out another gift for me...

and I had to wear THREE watches for the rest of the night wtf

Hahaha so this is the REAL watch! Which I really liked a lot!! Thanks so much you people for knowing me so well! :-)

Oh and Xiaoqin baked a cake for me! Wtf am really so touched. When she brought the cake out the singer of the live band got everyone to sing a birthday song for me!! I didn't know what to do wtf smiling like an idiot throughout hahaha. Thank you for making me feel like a princess last night!

Went off after we finished the cake and we just took a lot of silly pictures by the river and cracking ourselves up with all the stupid jokes only we will find funny...but really, that's just what TRUE FRIENDS are like! We took many many blur and silly shots before I said "can we please take a proper one so I can post something?!" Hahaha.

finally a proper shot wtf

It is truly with them that I can be my true self and show all the unglam sides of ourselves. Making a fool out of ourselves and being silly in public but with them I don't really care how stupid I look :-)

xiaoxiaoqin!

kaytay!

kelista!

elaine who's my long lost friend refound!

and my fav gal of all time!

Took a walk to Clarke Quay afterwards and Elaine joined her friends while we went home! It was a short night but a splendid one. Thank you these people, I'm so blessed to have you guys in my life and NEVER will I exchange anyone else for any of you.

And as I've said many times before, as I grow older, I no longer found the need for surprises, midnight cake surprise at the doorstep, luxurious gifts and handmade cards. A simple dinner was all it took to make me feel loved, because with these people, I can be myself.

I enjoyed myself thoroughly with them and I really really hope we will be friends even when we're old and wrinkled. By then we'll probably have forgotten loads of things from the past but what will never be forgotten will be our friendship. Thank you dears.

Happy 19th, Toh Yi Qian. Wishing you all the health and happiness you will ever need. And may your birthday wish come true. Till the big TWO!

Bye!