Hurt

It just sucks so much to care about people who don't care about you, you know?

We obviously know people who only come to you when they need you. These are the people who take your presence for granted and your absence for naught. We know we mean less than a cent to them.

And yet, we can't bring ourselves to leave. We can't bring ourselves to stop caring about them. We can't force ourselves to unlove someone.

We ask ourselves this question repetitively over and over again "why do you care? Because h/she doesn't" But we have no answer.

We often let them control our feelings and emotions. Which is utterly wrong because you're allowing someone to affect you. It's like giving them the permission to destroy and ruin you. Passing them the gun and knowing that they'll pull the trigger, but we don't run.

And then we ask ourselves again - is this what love is supposed to feel like? That you're so willing to be destroyed. Ironically, being hurt and refusing to leave.

Now if you always thought love would bring you happiness, perhaps you've never thought how love would destroy your happiness.

And it just doesn't only apply to relationships. Friendships, kinships are often what destroy us most.

People always say friendships last longer than relationships. But is it even true?

If your friend decides one day that you're no longer friends then what do you do?

Do you look for a new friend?

You know there'll always be that empty hole in your heart. The hole wasn't empty when your friend existed. It becomes an empty hole when your friend leaves, and the hole won't cease to exist, you know? And that is why it hurts. Because the holes remain.