Fragile but strong

Haven't been up to anything lately, hence the lack of entries! I'm still enjoying my holiday but it's gonna be coming to an end soon...which scares me a lot because I haven't done anything in the past 1.5 months (don't ask me why)

Today I was doing my usual morning routine of doing the laundry and all when my sister whatsapped me that my cousin passed away.

Most of you probably have cousins around the same age as you but I don't. Most of my cousins are already married and some of them even have kids. This cousin of mine is married with no kids and probably about 40 years old this year.

He was diagnosed with kidney failure about 13 years ago and his family managed with every cent they could for him to undergo a kidney transplant which then earned him another decade.

Just recently his kidney failure acted up again and he was undergoing dialysis until one day he felt really uncomfortable while at the dialysis center and he was admitted to Mt. A till today, he never came out.

I really don't fathom why life can be so fragile yet strong at the same time. It's always so contradicting. And I don't know why but ever since my grandma passed away nothing has ever been on the good side. In just 4 years my family went through 4 funerals...just imagine the pain we all went through. We are always so afraid of another heart aching news but it always happens.

I really hope my cousin is now safe in another world where he no longer feels pain and sorrow. While I am happy for him because he's finally finished fighting this battle I'm really sorry for his wife and mother. I hope they all stay strong. 

Ah guan kor kor, 你一定要保佑我们大家。一路走好。